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HERE ARE THE MULTIPLE BLOOPERS I MADE WHILE TRYING TO RECORD..
🕑 Added 2021-03-15 22:07:45 +0000 UTC HERE ARE THE MULTIPLE BLOOPERS I MADE WHILE TRYING TO RECORD FLY ME TO THE MOON ON YOUTUBE A FEW DAYS AGO 🤣 guys I’m such a mess 🤣 sorry for the screaming and plane bomb joke 🤣I don’t usually ever watch my failed attempts, I would just delete them,
Cuz I failed them 🤣🤷🏼♀️
but since I started posting them for you guys on here it’s been quite the experience to reflect on this aspect of myself 🤡
I’m glad I did because I don’t like the way I handle it at ALL. I get very frustrated at myself, the planes flying by, the motorcycle man 🤣😩 that is not the way I want to feel, regardless of if I “mess up”
The more I mess up the more I get this voice in the back of my head that tells me to just give up because I’m obviously struggling therefor what I’m doing is trash 🤣😩 I KNOW that’s not true it’s just how I feel sometimes in those spaces.
As I continue my courses to becoming a meditation teacher, the quote that stuck with me most is “Let everything your currently doing be your meditation.”
Which simply means that as you go about your life and situations occur, have that inner stillness inside you that is just observing instead of judging like you do when in deep meditation. Remembering that this is all an act of play not work.
I like to think I’m a walking example of that til I fucking watch my song bloopers🤣 🤦♀️ Sigh lol
But I’m so glad now that I am aware of this in myself so that I know I have something to work on 😁 that is the work!
I must continually do work on the self in order to be of any true service to others.
And that is work I don’t mind doing for the rest of my life :) what else can I do?
Thank you my friends for loving me even when I am not perfect 💖
Mckay
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