I had recently written the story of my journey up to date fo..
🕑 Added 2021-11-25 03:04:23 +0000 UTC
I had recently written the story of my journey up to date for a smoking fetish website called Smoking Fetish Kingdom. I thought it would be good to have it here as well. For many of you this may repeat many of the things I have already said in previous videos, but for anyone who hasn't this might help to tell a bit about my background as well as how and why I started smoking.
(because of the post character limit I have broken this up into several parts, also you may notice some obvious spelling errors because OF has a ban on some words lol)
Enjoy!
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PART ONE
Throughout my life I haven't really broken many rules. In school, growing up, I was a good student who studied hard and made my best efforts to complete all of my assignments. I did not have many friends and didn't really go out to parties or anything like that, but school was my focus and I took pride in accomplishing my tasks so I was happy to study. I am also a fairly shy person and I don't usually speak up about things, I just try to stay out of trouble. That's not to say that I didn't have any desires however, I liked being a girl and liked to feel pretty. Although not typical by today's standards, I have always liked the traditional gender roles and willingly admit to being a submissive person. I met my now husband in school where we both fell in love and have been inseparable ever since. We have been on many adventures in life and travelled to lots of places together and I have always dedicated my time to him and he has for me too. In general, I would say I have always been very pleased with my life.
Now you may be wondering how smoking is involved in this at all. Smoking was never anything I was really subject to as my friends and family are all non-smokers. Actually, anti-smokers would be more appropriate to say. It is normal where I am to look down on smokers and the decisions they've made as well as anything else to do with cigarettes. It's funny how things work around here, because drinking and gambling are encouraged, drugs are cool, cigars are a power symbol, but cigarettes are simply unacceptable. In high school, I remember seeing other girls trying to be popular and I would just kind of laugh to myself as they seemed desperate for attention. However, a lot of them would start smoking and it seemed to change them significantly. They started hanging out with other smokers, dressing and acting differently, and actually becoming very popular and attractive. I never really equated smoking with that transformation, but it was something I noticed happening at the same time. When moving on to college I began to notice it a lot more where pretty shy and introverted girls seemed to start smoking in their first years. I don't know if it was from the stress, new peer pressure, or simply something they were experimenting with for a change, but I saw a lot of girls do it and the effects of it appeared greater than in high school. The girls would seem less burdened by their classes and more attentive to their social lives learning to dress up and go to parties. It seemed as though they became more mature and womanly. Being kept to myself as usual, I passed college with good grades but couldn't help but to realize everyone else seemed like adults after going out into the real world. I still felt like a kid, a little girl that was simply spectating other peoples progression. I didn't feel any more mature. Don't get me wrong, I still loved being yung and I don't believe being childish needs to get old, there's no point in rushing our adolescence. But in some way I still didn't feel like a woman.
My husband has always been supportive and I feel his attraction to me, but I wanted to feel more attractive for myself. As a woman. One major aspect of growing up as a girl has been through the confidence gained after going through puberty. I remember girls developing and boys went from teasing them and making fun of them to being attracted to them and wanting to please them. I would secretly fantasize about wearing long dresses and heels when I have boobs. But to my dismay, nothing ever really seemed to happen. I started getting my period and I waited and waited but nothing really changed. I wasn't terribly hurt by my lack thereof, but I couldn't help to envy what it must have felt like for the girls that did. Regardless, I have always been an optimistic person and I continued with my schoolwork and found my lover. Several years ago, I was on a cruise in the Caribbean with my family and I was reading alone when a girl approached me. She was wearing some sort of a dancing costume and looked as though she was working as part of the entertainment on the ship. She was walking directly across the deck towards me smiling. I assumed she was walking towards someone else so I just smiled and turned away, but she immediately said hello and introduced herself to me. Apparently, she was part of that evening's beauty contest and was trying to find vacationers aboard the ship to take part. I just kind of laughed at the idea and said it was definitely not for me. She insisted that I was beautiful and people would love to see me, but I looked at her and unintentionally compared her body to mine. She had great big round boobs, literally the opposite of how I looked. Not to mention she was confident and beautiful and knew how to get people's attention. Being myself, I simply shrugged it off and said it wasn't for me. What she said to me after resonated though. She said I was just looking at her breasts and that they were fake. She said anyone can just go buy them for themself and to imagine how I could look if I did. I still declined to take part, but I did wonder what it would be like. Over the next couple of years the thought continually popped up and one day I proposed it to my husband. He was absolutely shocked! I was definitely not the type of person you would expect to bring up something like that. However, it wasn't hard to gain his support, I could tell the idea of it excited him, and in return that made it more exciting for me. I decided to just go for it, and when I consulted with the surgeon they explained all the options available for my body type and showed me every size of implant from an A to a DD cup. What was more shocking was when I just asked for the biggest. It was all the same price and I figured if I wanted to have boobs, I wanted to have big ones. I wanted to feel the weight of them, and feel what it would be like to be supported by a bra. Weird in a way, but something I really wanted to experience. The operation was supposed to happen over the year but mine got bumped up because of an opening and I suddenly had boobs in a couple of weeks! It was a shock and something I am honestly still getting used to. I won't go into detail about my whole boob job experience, but in a nutshell I was now busty and I loved it. I felt more confident and sexy and I loved the way my new body looked.
