This is a long over-due post. It took me awhile to gather my..
🕑 Added 2022-11-10 20:02:25 +0000 UTC
This is a long over-due post. It took me awhile to gather my thoughts and be comfortable coming out with this post, I did say I would talk about what happened in the past few months during my last Twitch Stream. I do tend to overshare stuff which I wish I stopped doing but I feel like I'm in a situation where I need a lot of help and I don't know what to do anymore. Sorry if I'm oversharing.
My dad got into a relationship years ago. I wasn't too fond of her because of the way she acted towards me and how I felt like I was an ATM machine for her son.
They ended up breaking up years back, but got back together this year of July. I was really happy for my dad because I want my dad to be happy. After a month of getting back together, I was told she was going to move in with us within 2 weeks, along with her son who is in HS. This gave me no time to mentally prepare because I knew dynamic in the house was going to change. But for my dad's sake, I was happy for him..
So nothing bad right? well...
This is the part where I completely lost it.. When moving in, she brought all her stuff, which is completely 100% expected. But what was NOT expected was she ended up throwing away majority of my stuff.. My pots, my pans, lids, majority of my kitchenware. But I didn't know this yet, because I would be upstairs whenever she was downstairs since I didn't want to come in contact with her since it's kind of awkward. The only time I would cross paths with her is when I'm going out. So I would notice a bunch of trash bags that were filled in the garage. I just thought it was just pure trash. One day when she was out, I was finally going to cook something in the kitchen. I couldn't find anything anywhere, so I had to assumption that she just moved stuff around. I looked around everywhere near the kitchen area. Nothing.
Then it clicked in my head. I went to the garage and I opened every.single.trash.bag. to find out all of my stuff had been thrown away. NONE of it was trash. NONE of it was broken. Cups, Plates. Bowls, Kitchen Utensils, Kitchen Collectibles, my late mom's favorite plates/pots/bowls/glasses/pillows and blankets my mom made on her own, stuff that had sentimental value to me that I arranged and placing them in a specific cabinet when first moving into this house; stuff like my crock pot, slow cooker, there's just so much other stuff.. and i'm literally tearing up writing this because I'm so frustrated. The lids/plates were shattered and glass was everywhere, the only thing that I managed to save that wasn't in the the other bags of broken glass was one pot. (it's funny because she only kept one cooking pan of mine and continues to use it today.)
My dad was in the house and I was yelling/crying. I was furious after finding out what was in the trash bags. My dad told me he'll repay everything and I said no, she needs to repay me. Dad was getting mad at me for suggesting her to pay for what she broke and threw away. My dad called her and she apologized THROUGH my dad. She didn't apologize to me.. UNTIL 2-3 DAYS LATER.. It's funny because how she ended up apologizing was; I was going out the house and she was coming in and she said sorry only when we bumped into each other. It was a quick ''sorry'' and we went our ways.
Not too shortly after that, since her son is moving in as well, he had to take one of the rooms. Which ended up being the room where we put my mom's bed. My dad asked me if I knew any helpers to move to bed to another room, and I said no.. My dad's GF comes in the house with her sister with 2 hammers, and they start to hammer and shatter my mom's bed.. Fun fact, I took a photo of her hammering it. I couldn't be in the house so I left and went to the gym and cried all night because of how everything was happening.
Now with the situation of her being in the house.. She is home 24/7. Her son is randomly home too when he's supposed to be in school, I don't know why. Which greatly affected my ability to do anything in the house. Since she knows english, and is downstairs in the living room area (my room being upstairs next to the stairs) she can hear EVERYTHING unless I am VERY quiet. I was so unbelievably uncomfortable in my own house that getting water gave me bad anxiety because she would watch me and question me on what I was doing and I felt like I just couldn't do anything in the house without being questioned. I felt like I was living in someone else's house. I decided to move out. I couldn't take it anymore. I was extremely uncomfortable. I had so much sadness and rage because everything that happened.. especially to my late mom's belongings.
I'm still in the process of moving out and I'm honestly so scared. I want to say on the bright side, I'll be able to be comfortable again. Another family member knows the situation and offered to stay with me during this time because... if i'm being honest, I'm not in the best mental state.
I wrote this post so people can have a better understanding why I'm sort of in a position where I've had my hands tied behind my back aka couldn't produce new content/stream/let alone being myself in my own home. That being said, I really hate being THAT person but I really do need all the help I can get especially right now. I literally lost a lot of my personal belongings and moving is quite expensive where I'm left in a tough financial spot.
This is a link to my amazon wish list : https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/36POH6POGGYFI/ref=nav_wishlist_lists_1
I truly appreciate just anything off my wishlist, anything helps for me to get back on my feet, especially kitchenware. cooking was my ''therapeutic'' time and hasn't been once she threw away all my stuff. If you'd like for me to add something else that's not on the wishlist, I'd be more than glad to add it.
Thank you again for reading this long message and thank you for understanding. I won't be further explaining this situation to anyone, thank you.
