Hey! So, lets have a chat about what this surgery means for ..
🕑 Added 2023-11-19 19:54:51 +0000 UTC
Hey! So, lets have a chat about what this surgery means for me as some people dont seem to understand and send me their two cents on how they prefer me like this and dont want me to do it.
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Take this in a sweet tone, i am autistic and my tone sometimes comes off mean via the internet but i try so hard for it not to.
I am Tommie Marrs and i am Transgender.
I explain it like this.
My female frame was given a male soul. On the inside, I am pure male. I look down at my body and it doesnt even look like mine. It doesnt feel like mine. But,,, i know it is mine. This female body is mine although i was supposed to be male.
I suffer from something called gender dysphoria because of this.
Dysphoria defined: dys·pho·ria dis-ˈfȯr-ē-ə plural dysphorias. : a state of feeling very unhappy, uneasy, or dissatisfied. Paradoxically, chronic cocaine use eventually leads to dysphoria—a depressed, low-energy state characterized by flattened emotions, a lack of interest in sex, and physical immobility.
Gender Dysphoria Defined: a sense of unease that a person may have because of a mismatch between their biological sex and their gender identity. This sense of unease or dissatisfaction may be so intense it can lead to depression and anxiety and have a harmful impact on daily life.
My chest is one of the biggest things that get to me. I used to harm my body because i couldnt stop feeling the weight on my chest so i needed to feel something else. Something else besides the two sacks of fat that shouldnt even be there. Sure it sounds dramatic, but it felt like the weight of the world was on my chest and i couldnt get it off. it was permanently there. Hence alot of my scars on my arms and legs i tend to edit out more than not so i dont trigger anyone.
This surgery is life saving for me. I can finally move closer to living a happy, confident life.
When you decide to tell me you want to give your opinion on my body and what i should do with it aka not get the surgery, its kind of douchey.
You are essentially saying "I am so sorry that something brings you so much pain to the point you have harmed yourself over it and want to no longer continue on in life due to it, but i prefer you this way and i love your tits." It is so selfish for you to try to talk me out of something that is going to allow me to be so much more comfortable in my own skin.
Something that is going to atleast let my soul feel somewhat connected to this frame i was given.
Something that is going to allow me to feel free.
Something that is going to help me bare with the fact i will never actually be male but at least when i look down i wont have this sick feeling in my stomach.
I will be fucking thriving.
Look all of this sounds so dramatic but being transgender fucking sucks. I dont even have sex in real life because of it. I dont date because of it.
i tried to fight it for years hoping i could just be a girl but it ended in many attempts to end my life
so before you tell me dont get the surgery for your selfish ways, take a second to think about how my chest affects me.
