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(Blog)10月の終わりによせて As October comes to a close
🕑 Added 2023-10-31 14:55:50 +0000 UTC
An English version follows the Japanese version.
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今月は毎日の投稿を止めてみました。正直なところ、まだこの変更に慣れることができていません。投稿頻度を下げただけで、自分自身が楽をしているように感じることがあります。これには罪悪感のようなものも感じていましたが、投稿のスタイルを変えることで、新しい何かを始められたら良いとも思っていました。
しかし、スタイルを変えるのはそう簡単ではありませんでした。
毎日投稿をやめてから、イラスト制作をしていない時でもいつも頭の片隅に「やるべきことをやっていないような居心地の悪さ」がありました。おそらくしばらくしたら慣れてなんとも思わなくなるのでしょうが、あまりにも心地が悪すぎました。少なくない支援金も頂いていますし。
先ほど久々に時間に追われてイラストを作ってみたら、クオリティはさておき精神的にすごく楽でした。居心地の悪さが少し緩和されるような。
たくさんイラスト見れる分皆さんにとってもいいのかなあとも思っています。最近制作スキルが停滞しているので、あくまで攻めの精神を忘れずにどんどんチャレンジする毎日投稿にできたらいいなと。
とはいってもたぶんまた毎日投稿始めたら、それはそれできついとか言い始めると思うので、マイルドな毎日投稿にしようと思っています。プライベートもあるのでAI触れない日もありますし、継続特典とかをじっくり作りたい日もあるので。基本毎日投稿で、たまに予告なく1-2日お休みさせてもらうかもしれない、くらいの感じでやっていきます。3日以上休むときは事前に言います。旅に出るときもあるので、そのときはしばらくお休みさせてください。
投稿頻度なんて好きにしたらいいのかもしれないのですが、締め切りがないとできない、宣言しないとなかなかできないタイプなので…。ここで（ほぼ）毎日投稿復活宣言をしておきます。といっても明日は投稿できないのですが…
ころころ変わってしまって恐縮ですが、失敗上等でとりあえずやってみるスタイルなのでお許しください。まだ始めて1年も経ってないですし、手探り状態です。
というわけで、11月からまた毎日投稿頑張ります！
来月からもよろしくお願いいたします！
P.S.
休暇中は時間もたっぷりあってモチベーションが上がり、いろいろやりたいと思っていたのですが、日常生活に戻ると…なぜこんなに時間に追われてしまうのでしょうか…
継続特典にたくさんの申し込みをいただき、ありがとうございます！まとまった時間が取れ次第、順次お送りしますので、もうしばらくお待ちください。
yidall
Please note that the following is a machine translation, so I apologize if there are any strange expressions.
Dear Supporters,
Thank you so much for your warm support!
This month, I decided to take a break from daily posting. To be honest, I’m still not quite used to this change. Even though I've only reduced the posting frequency, there are times when I feel like I am taking it too easy on myself. I’ve been feeling a sort of guilt about this, but at the same time, I was hoping that changing my posting style could lead to the start of something new.
However, changing my style proved to be not as easy as I thought. Since stopping the daily posts, there’s been this constant unease in the back of my mind, a feeling of not doing what I should be doing, even when I’m not working on illustrations. Maybe I’ll get used to it after a while and it won’t bother me anymore, but for now, it's quite uncomfortable. Especially when I'm receiving a considerable amount of support funding.
Just now, I rushed to create an illustration after a long time, and despite the quality, it felt mentally refreshing. It seemed to alleviate the discomfort a bit. I also think that seeing more illustrations might be good for everyone. My creative skills have been stagnating recently, so I want to return to the spirit of taking on challenges and perhaps go back to daily posting.
That being said, if I do start posting daily again, I will probably start complaining about how tough it is... So, I’m thinking of adopting a more mild form of daily posting. There will be days when I can’t touch AI due to personal commitments, and there will be days when I want to take my time creating loyalty rewards. So, I plan to post on a daily basis, but please understand that there might be occasional 1-2 day breaks without notice. If I take more than three days off, I will let you know in advance. There will also be times when I’m traveling, so please allow me some time off then.
I know I should probably just post as often as I like, but I’m the type of person who needs deadlines and declarations to get things done... So here I am, declaring the (almost) return to daily posting. That being said, I won’t be able to post tomorrow...
I know I’ve been inconsistent and I apologize for that, but please understand that I’m all for trying things out and learning from failures. I haven’t even been doing this for a year yet, so I’m still figuring things out.
So, from November, I’ll be giving daily posting another shot!
Looking forward to your continued support in the coming month!
P.S.
I had plenty of time and motivation during my break and wanted to do a lot, but once I returned to my daily routine... I wonder why I end up being so pressed for time...
Thank you to everyone who applied for the loyalty rewards! Please wait a little longer; I will send them out as soon as I can find a good chunk of time.
yidall
Comments
yidall
Actually, the illustrations I always use for my blog are from an unpublished set that I created a while ago. I'm quite fond of them myself, but they're the kind of illustrations I prefer to show one at a time rather than all together. So please look forward to the occasional blog update!
I am a hero too
I just noticed the picture used for this post, Mt Fuji and Kimono! Please release a set of it soon!!
yidall
Thank you for the wonderful comment! You're right, how we use our time is really important.
Rayle
Take what time you need 🤗no sense burning yourself out. I understand that feeling of needing deadlines because I'm the same, and some of my best work comes out when I'm near the deadline and have that pressure to just GO!! Do what you need to do but don't forget to take a break for yourself or to spend time with friends and family.
