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Who are you?
🕑 Added 2025-08-07 16:00:15 +0000 UTC"Oh fuck..." The words slip out before you can catch them, your own voice startling you as it hangs in the air—high, luscious, thick with a Japanese accent, nothing like the aggressive and nasally whine you’d grown up with. For a moment you cling to the shock of it, to the hint of your old self that’s still capable of being startled at all.
You look down, and what you see is always a shock, always a letdown, always the final confirmation: this isn’t your body. It’s petite, sculpted, exaggerated, obscene — huge breasts block your view of the floor and your former feet, which, if they still exist, are lost somewhere far below the twin domes of jiggling flesh that rise out from your chest like perfectly ripe melons. The skin is a flawless shade, impossible to describe except that it belongs to someone who never left the house. And the hands—the hands, when you move them—are tiny, delicate, almost breakable, like the hands of a porcelain doll. Your entire frame is fragile and condensed and yet perversely sexual, a contradiction so complete that the first time you caught sight of yourself in a bathroom mirror you nearly fainted. Then you saw the second, fuller reflection—full-length, in the hotel elevator—and did faint, waking up only after a guest from the next floor shook you hard and asked, in worried English, if you were "okay, ma'am?"
You want to say no, but the answer is always yes.
You test your voice again, just to feel it, just to see if the words will stick to your tongue or come out the way you mean. "Goddamn," you breathe, and there’s a melody to it, a soft curling to the vowels that makes every word sound like a wet dream. You feel a wave of humiliation, and then, worse, a wave of heat between your legs. This is not your body but it is somehow, very good at being alive.
Even now, you can feel the viscous, traitorous wetness dripping from between your legs. If you put a hand there—if you dare—it comes away slick and glistening, like you just stepped out of an hour of passionate sex. The air in the room is thick with a heady, musky perfume and you know, with a bone-deep certainty, that it is coming from you, the way sweat and tears and testosterone used to, only now it’s this, this oozing, constant arousal that seems to saturate everything you wear and every surface you touch.
You want to be disgusted, but the feeling is curiously abstract, as if the disgust is a code written for someone else’s program. There’s a memory—fuzzy now—of the man you were, or thought you were, staring at your own cock in a hotel mirror and daring yourself to see it for the last time, to try to memorize every curve and vein and patch of pubic hair before it disappeared forever. You can’t remember if you succeeded. You can’t even remember, sometimes, if you had a male name before all of this.
The moments of lucidity are getting shorter, and you know it. Sometimes they last a few hours, sometimes a few minutes, always coming on like a storm: a dizzying rush of old memories and language and raw, animal fear, followed by the slow, corrupted crawl of this new personality, this wet and eager slut who hijacks your brain and makes you say and do things you would never have dreamed. You wonder, vaguely, if anyone back home has noticed you’re missing yet, or if they would even recognize you now if you showed up on their doorstep wearing a miniskirt and a smile and nothing else.
They probably wouldn’t. The thought is both freeing and terrifying.
There is a full-length mirror in the bedroom, set at an angle so that wherever you move you’re always caught in its glassy stare. You tell yourself you won’t look at it, but you do. You always do. You want to see if there’s anything left of the old you, any last trace that this was once a man, once a twenty-five-year-old who took solo trips to Japan and spent hours sampling ramen and shochu and midnight street food with the desperate hope that he might finally taste something real. You look, and all you see is her: the perfectly made-up face with full lips, high cheekbones, eyes so dark they seem to swallow the light, and hair that hangs in glossy black waves all the way to your lower back. She is small, but impossibly curvy, with hips that promise children and thighs that would crush anyone stupid enough to underestimate her. She looks nothing like you, but when she moves, when she blinks or bites her lip or tosses her hair, the reflection follows a fraction of a second too slow, like it’s waiting for permission.
The urge to touch yourself is always there, just under the skin, like a rash you can’t scratch in public. You have learned to resist, most days, because to give in is to surrender completely to her—her wants, her needs, her shameless, slutty hunger. There are memories—recent ones—of crawling into bed at night with that hunger burning through your veins, of pressing your new fingers into your new folds and finding it so easy, so natural, that you come in thirty seconds or less, over and over, moaning in a voice you never wanted but now crave to hear.
You try not to remember what you were doing when it started, but of course you do. It was the fertility shrine, the one the guidebooks barely mention and the locals only talk about in a whisper, as if saying the name out loud would bring the gods down on your head. You remember the way the shrine maidens stared at you, as if you were something to be pitied, or something to be feared. You remember the old woman with the basket of coins, the way she pressed one into your palm and said, in flawless English, "You will find what you are looking for, but you may not like what you find." You laughed it off, then, because you were a tourist and a skeptic and the world was nothing if not ordinary.
Now the world is nothing if not strange.
You imagine, sometimes, the scene if you returned home. The cab ride from the airport, the walk up to your old apartment, the confusion on the faces of your neighbors and friends, the horror on your mother’s face as she realized her son had been replaced by a woman straight out of some anime fever dream. The thought makes you want to laugh and cry at the same time, so you do neither, just sit on the edge of the bed and stare at your hands until the trembling stops.
Somewhere in the apartment, a phone vibrates. The sound is foreign but also familiar, a lifeline to a world you barely remember. You force yourself to stand—every movement is an exercise in grace now, every step a performance for an invisible audience— the thick carpet muffling the click of your heels. You pick up the phone, and your new reflection in the black glass screen mocks you: pretty, perfect, unreal.
The text is in Japanese, but you read it without thinking. "Dinner at eight. Wear the blue dress. I love you." The words are blunt, possessive, oddly comforting. You want to hate the man who sends them, but a part of you is already smoothing your hair, already picturing the blue dress that clings to every curve and leaves nothing to the imagination.
You press the phone to your chest and close your eyes, just for a second, letting the sound of your own breathing fill your ears. This is your life now. This is the only reality you get.
You open your eyes and walk to the mirror. You look at her. She looks at you. You both smile, and for just a moment, you’re not sure which of you is in charge anymore.
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You try to remember when the first crack appeared. Not the fracture in the mirror, not the split in your psyche, but the initial sense that things were about to go horrifically, irreversibly wrong.
It wasn’t even your fault. You weren’t that disrespectful at the shrine, not like the guidebooks warned against—no loud laughter, no shoes on the tatami, not even a selfie inside the prayer hall. Maybe you’d lingered a little too long at the offertory box, watching the old women in their ceremonial red and white, wondering if the "god of fertility" was a joke lost in translation or something far more ancient and real. But you bowed, you clapped, you offered a coin and a prayer, same as everyone else. When the shrine maiden told you, in careful English, "Maybe is not for you," you’d simply nodded, embarrassed, and turned to go.
The warmth hit you just as you stepped from the incense haze back into the cold Tokyo air: a crawling, sticky feeling that started between your shoulder blades and radiated outward, until the whole world seemed fuzzy at the edges, overexposed and slightly too bright. You figured it was jetlag, maybe dehydration. You didn’t even think about it again until you reached the hotel room that night and felt your stomach twist as if something alive were writhing inside, gnawing at your guts and then climbing higher, up your throat, into your head.
That was when your vision started to blur. At first, it was just the room losing definition, lines bending and warping like a funhouse mirror. Then the lights became too sharp, colors too saturated, and every sound echoed twice—once as you remembered it from a thousand normal days, and once as something new, electric, alien. You went to the bathroom and splashed your face with cold water. When you looked up, you saw two versions of yourself overlaid: the familiar, pasty face, jawline a little too square, nose a little too large, eyes a flat gray-blue; and beneath it, like a ghost trying to claw free, a face you didn’t recognize at all. It was paler, smoother, the features drawn in softer lines, lips a swollen curve, cheekbones so high and sharp they seemed dangerous, eyes slanted and dark and rimmed in thick lashes. You blinked and it blinked back, a fraction of a second late.
That’s when the real changes began.
You tried to close your eyes and sleep it off, but the pain kept you awake. It was the most intense headache of your life, like your skull was shrinking while your brain tried desperately to burst free. The bones in your face started to move, grinding and shifting under the skin, and your hands went up in panic but the hands themselves were already changing—fingers stretching thinner, nails growing out in a matter of seconds, the hair on your arms vanishing and the skin softening to an impossible smoothness.
You tried to scream, but your throat collapsed around the sound. The noise you made was high-pitched, tremulous, not the bark you remembered from locker rooms and bad karaoke. Your Adam’s apple flattened, and the pain spread downward, compressing your windpipe, forcing every exhale to a breathy moan. You staggered to the mirror and watched as your jawline receded, your chin shrinking into a delicate point, your nose crunching inward until it was a tiny, perky button, cartoonish on the new landscape of your face.
You slapped your cheeks, desperate to wake up, but your touch only seemed to accelerate the transformation. The skin under your palms was bouncy, supple, as if you’d been dipped in wax and set to harden. Your eyes grew larger, the irises darkening into a chocolate brown, the sclera whitening to a supernatural gleam. You leaned in, horrified, and watched your old hair color drain away—first to white, then instantly to jet black—while the hair itself burst from your scalp, falling in glossy curtains down past your shoulders. You brushed it back in disbelief, and your own hands caught you off guard: the nails a perfect oval, painted in a nude shade you’d never bought, the fingers slim and pale, the bones delicate.
You made a fist, and even that felt wrong—weak, as if your body had traded muscle for something else, some secret strength that had nothing to do with brute force.
The changes didn’t stop at your head and hands.
The bones of your shoulders crackled, one after the other, as your broad, manly chest cinched inward. Your collarbones became razor sharp, protruding from flesh that went from sunburned American to flawless porcelain in seconds. You could see your own arms reshaping in real time: the biceps thinning, the wrists growing tiny and elegant, the veins disappearing under milk-white skin. Your chest tingled, then burned, and you yelped as the flesh there started to swell, ballooning under your t-shirt until the fabric pinched and then split along the side seams.
You tore the shirt off, and the new shape of your chest made you gasp, then whimper. Breasts—actual, real, quivering breasts—were swelling outward, the nipples huge and pink and incredibly sensitive, every inch of them alive with sensation. You watched, transfixed and helpless, as the flesh continued to fill out, going from flat to small and perky, then to the cartoonish, exaggerated swell of a centerfold model. The weight of them was real, and they bounced and swayed when you moved, impossible to ignore, a constant, pulsing reminder of what you’d lost and what you’d gained.
You cupped one in your hand, just to prove it was real. The skin was warm, the nipple so sensitive you nearly cried out. You squeezed harder and felt something inside give way—fat, gland, whatever anatomy you now had—and the breast jiggled satisfyingly in your palm. The areole darkened, widening until it was almost obscene, and the nipple hardened under your touch.
You let your hand drop, and the next wave of changes hit: your spine arched inward with a sickening crack, the whole torso shrinking as your waist cinched tighter and tighter. You doubled over, clutching your belly, and felt your hips pop and expand, a sudden explosion of flesh and bone. The ass you’d never really had, never really cared about, now blew up behind you, fat pooling until it formed two perfect, round cheeks. The effect was instant, transformative. You stood up straight and almost tipped over backward, the new weight distribution so bizarre that you needed a few steps to get your balance.
Your thighs swelled outward to match your new proportions, and the muscles dissolved into a plush, yielding softness that quivered with every step. The hair on your legs receded and vanished, the skin turning smooth and shiny. Your feet shrank to a ridiculous size, toes fusing into dainty, cute little digits that would look more at home in a manga than on an American tourist.
You tried to speak, to call for help, but your new voice was utterly foreign—a sweet, airy purr, the kind of thing men begged to hear whispered in their ears. It was so erotic you blushed at your own words, even when you tried to curse. The accent was thick, unmistakable, every syllable twisted into something sultry and dangerous.
The only thing left—the only part of you that was still you—was between your legs. You stared down, wild-eyed, and watched as the shaft began to shrink, the head pinching inward, the whole thing folding in on itself like a telescope collapsing into a black hole. You screamed, but even that sounded like a moan. The balls withdrew, crawling up into your body, and you felt an obscene pressure as they liquefied and split, reforming into something higher, softer, hidden. The skin of your crotch pinched together, sealing shut, and then it happened: a slit appeared, and deep inside, something new and raw and throbbing opened up.
You dropped to your knees and pressed your fingers between your legs. It was wet—soaked, in fact—and the pressure of your own touch sent a shiver all the way to the base of your spine. You were panting, sweating, every inch of you on fire, but the urge to explore was impossible to resist. You slipped a finger inside and nearly screamed at how sensitive it was, the walls of your new canal pulsing around you, desperate for stimulation. You pressed deeper, and something inside spasmed, releasing a gush of clear, slick fluid down your thigh.
You lay there on the bathroom floor, shaking, hair fanned around you like a pillow, hands clutched to your new chest. The smell of sex filled the room, sweet and sharp and undeniable. You flexed your legs, learning how to move again, and when you stood up, the woman in the mirror was the only one left. She smiled at you, lips glossy and wet, teeth perfect and gleaming. Her eyes glowed with a dangerous intelligence, and you saw your old self somewhere behind them, screaming, but the sound was muffled, distant.
You tried to cry, but your new face just didn’t know how.
You looked at your reflection, at the impossible curves and flawless skin, and you felt a wave of something new: a hunger, a need, a burning desire to be touched, to be seen, to be taken. The memory of the shrine flashed in your mind, the old woman’s warning echoing louder than ever: You will find what you are looking for, but you may not like what you find.
You found it. And now you are lost.
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You’re not even sure how long you’ve been here. The days blend together, one seamless parade of silk sheets, scented candles, and the constant, unyielding presence of your own reflection. The clock on the wall is decorative, its hands forever stuck at seven, the hour of seduction, or maybe the hour of surrender. You live in a perpetual twilight, the curtains drawn to keep the outside world at bay, the air thick with perfume and memories that aren’t yours.
You look in the mirror. Not a glance—never just a glance—but a stare, a desperate search for a trace of who you used to be. The woman in the glass is flawless. Not beautiful, exactly, but perfect in that manufactured, algorithmic way that makes you want to touch and taste and own her. Her hair is a black waterfall, glossy and heavy, framing a face that could have been drawn by a committee of perverts: eyes shaped like almonds, glimmering with some private mischief; lips full and wet, pursed in a way that begs to be bitten; skin pale and luminous, smooth as buttercream. You raise your hand, and she mimics the gesture, but her fingers are dainty, her nails immaculate, her wrists thin enough to break with a gentle twist.
You turn away, but the mirror clings to your image, refusing to let go. It watches you as you move around the bedroom, the room designed for two but haunted only by you and your ghost. The furniture is all plush and expensive, the colors muted but the textures obscene—velvet, silk, leather, fur. There are dresses in the closet you’ve never worn, shoes lined up like soldiers, rows of cosmetics and perfumes on the vanity, all perfectly arranged as if waiting for their true owner to come home.
You drift to the window, though you know what you’ll see. The city below is a blur, a thousand lights smeared by the fogged glass, and the sky above is black as ink. Somewhere out there is the world you left behind, or that left you behind. Somewhere out there are people who might remember you, if they even bothered to try. But in here, in this sealed-off bubble of luxury and lust, you are someone else’s fantasy, a collection of parts assembled to specification.
You try to remember your old face, but it’s a lost file, overwritten by newer, glossier versions. You remember the sensation of shaving your jaw, of running your tongue along the uneven line of your teeth, of wrinkling your nose at your own reflection. None of that makes sense now. Your new skin is too smooth, too yielding, and even your nose is so tiny and delicate you’re afraid to touch it. Your teeth are perfect and white, your jaw a gentle curve. You try to wrinkle your nose, and it just looks cute, not stupid.
It gets worse the further down you go. Your chest is an engineering marvel: two heaving orbs that defy gravity and reason, nipples always at half-mast, always waiting to be pinched or licked or sucked. The skin is taut, the cleavage deep, and even when you try to slouch they seem to stand at attention, a monument to someone else’s obsession. Your waist is obscene, cinched so tight you sometimes have trouble breathing, but that’s the point. The hips flare outward, cartoonish and fertile, thighs pressed together in a way that forces you to walk with a roll, a sway, a performance.
And the ass. You didn’t even care about asses, before. Now it’s the first thing anyone notices about you, the way it swells and ripples with every movement, the way it fills every seat and every pair of panties you own. You try to sit demurely, knees together, hands folded, but the ass just laughs at you, spreading wide and demanding attention.
You know this isn’t what you asked for. You know, in some deep, essential way, that you have been sculpted—built to specification for someone else’s pleasure. You remember, dimly, a conversation with a man in a bar, or maybe a hotel lobby. He was older, confident, wearing a suit that cost more than your entire wardrobe. He watched you with the kind of hunger that makes you feel naked, even when you’re not. You remember the way he looked at your old body and then, as if by magic, looked past it, as if seeing the woman you would become.
"You could be perfect, you know," he’d said, in English so precise it bordered on predatory. "With the right attitude. The right shape." He’d offered you a drink. You said yes, because it was easier than saying no.
You don’t remember the rest of the night, only the way you woke up in a strange room, and the changes had already begun.
There is a photograph on the nightstand, two people smiling on a bridge, the cherry blossoms in full bloom behind them. One of them is you, the new you, in a sundress and a smile, hair blowing in the breeze. The other is the man from the bar, arm slung possessively around your waist, his hand cupping your hip. He looks so proud, so satisfied. You want to rip the photo in half, but your hand won’t move, frozen in a pose of perfect obedience.
Sometimes you catch yourself smiling. Sometimes you catch yourself humming as you get dressed, or giggling at a stupid joke, or touching yourself in the shower just for the thrill of it. You want to believe these are holdovers, leftover echoes of the old you trying to make sense of the new reality. But you know better. The woman in the mirror is learning fast, and every day she gets stronger, more sure of herself, more eager to please.
You wonder if you could ever go back, if the transformation could be reversed. But every time you try to imagine it—broad shoulders, square jaw, thin lips, narrow hips—it feels like a bad dream, an outfit that never quite fit. You tell yourself it’s the curse, the shrine, the ancient god of fertility rewriting your DNA. But deep down, you know: this is what you were made for.
You drift through the bedroom, touching things just to prove you exist. You run your fingers along the edge of the bed, trail them over the surface of the vanity, tap them against the cold glass of the window. You feel everything so much more acutely now—textures, temperatures, even the air itself, soft and thick on your bare skin.
You catch your reflection again, and this time you don’t look away. You study her, really study her, the way a lover would. You see the little imperfections: the tiny scar at the corner of your lip, the birthmark just below your left breast, the faint shadow under your eyes that refuses to be covered by makeup. She is not just a fantasy. She is you.
The phone buzzes on the nightstand again. You walk over, hips rolling, breasts bouncing, and pick it up. The message is short, efficient, demanding: "Dinner at eight. Wear the blue dress."
You feel a pang of something—resentment, maybe, or anticipation, or just that old reflex to resist when you’re told what to do. But the blue dress is already laid out on the bed, and you can picture exactly how you’ll look in it, how it will cling to your curves and show off your shoulders, how the man at dinner will stare at you like you’re a dessert he’s been promised.
You slip the dress on, and it fits perfectly. Of course it does.
You look in the mirror one last time before you go, and the woman smiles back. For a moment, you wonder if she’s trying to comfort you, or just mocking you for ever thinking you had a choice.
But then the smile turns sly, and you realize: maybe you do have a choice. You could be the perfect wife, the perfect partner, the perfect plaything. Or you could be something else, something that no one expects.
You pick up the lipstick, and draw a bright, wicked slash across your new lips. You toss your hair and square your shoulders. You are ready.
You open the door, and step into the next chapter of your life.
You always think you’re ready for it, the lurch of the elevator and the world beyond the bedroom, but the moment you step out, it hits you: the scent of polished wood, the muffled hush of expensive carpet, the weight of expectation pressing in from every angle. You move down the hallway, hips swaying in a way that used to be artificial but now just… is. You wonder, briefly, how many hours of practice it took before your body gave up fighting and started doing it on its own, like a dog that learns to heel.
There’s a sense of horror in that, the realization that you’ve been reprogrammed so completely, and yet it’s not pure terror anymore. It’s tinged with something else—a queasy, unearned pride. You are beautiful, and you have been made to be beautiful, and you walk through the world knowing that every eye is on you, hungry or envious or both.
The man is waiting for you in the lobby. He always is. He stands by the window, hands in his pockets, wearing a dark suit that fits him like it was tailored from his own skin. He’s not conventionally handsome, but there’s something about the way he occupies space—commanding, confident, quietly dangerous. You want to hate him, but your heart flutters every time you see him, your breath coming just a little faster, your skin prickling with anticipation.
He turns, and the look he gives you is pure possession. He doesn’t even need to say anything; the smile is enough. It’s a private joke, a secret language, and you are fluent in it now. You glide toward him, feeling the blue dress cling and slide over every curve, and when he takes your hand, you’re surprised at how small and soft yours feels inside his.
"You look perfect," he says, and you shiver with pleasure and disgust, the emotions so intertwined you can’t tell where one ends and the other begins.
The restaurant is just an elevator ride away, another glittering box high above the city. Every table is candlelit, every surface polished to a mirror sheen. The waiters greet you by name—her name, not yours—and you’re guided to the best table, the one with the view. He orders for you, as always, and you watch yourself nod and smile and sip the wine, because this is what’s expected, because you are nothing if not obedient.
Halfway through the meal, you catch your own reflection in the window, superimposed over the skyline. You watch the way you move, the way you tilt your head and flutter your lashes, and for a moment you forget that you ever belonged to anyone else, that there was ever a time before this. The old you is a memory, a shadow, a glitch in the system. You mourn it, but only in the way you might mourn a missing pencil.
The conversation is easy, rehearsed. You laugh at his jokes, touch his arm at the right moment, signal with every glance and gesture that you are his and only his. You catch yourself thinking that you’re doing a good job, that he must be pleased with you, and the thought fills you with a sick warmth.
After dinner, he leads you to the bar, orders you a drink you would never have chosen, but you sip it anyway, because you like the way it makes you feel: lightheaded, loose, just a little bit dangerous. He keeps his hand on your thigh the whole time, fingers tracing slow, deliberate circles that make your skin tingle. You catch the bartender looking at you, a quick flick of his eyes to your chest and then back up, and you flush with pleasure at the attention, even though you know it’s just part of the package.
When the night is over, he walks you back to the room. The elevator ride is silent, tense, charged with something you can’t quite name. You can feel your heart pounding in your chest, your pussy already throbbing, slick and needy, and you wonder if he can smell it on you, if everyone can.
Inside the room, he doesn’t bother with small talk. He pushes you against the wall, kisses you hard, bites your lip until you gasp. You moan into his mouth, your own need shocking you with its intensity. He lifts you with one arm, like you weigh nothing, and carries you to the bed. The blue dress is gone in seconds, torn at the shoulder, pooling at your feet like a puddle of water. He strips you bare, and you’re grateful for it, grateful to be seen, to be wanted, to be used.
He fucks you the way a man fucks a woman he owns: rough, deep, relentless. You claw at his back, wrap your legs around his waist, pull him closer, deeper, desperate for more. Every thrust sends a bolt of electricity through your body, and you arch into it, crying out with every slap of flesh on flesh. You come once, then again, then lose count as the orgasms blend into one endless wave.
When he finishes, he collapses on top of you, breathing hard, and you wrap your arms around him, holding him there, not wanting the moment to end. You feel complete, in a way that’s both terrifying and exhilarating. You want to hate yourself for it, but you can’t. The old you is gone, replaced by this new, perfect thing, this perfect wife, this perfect fucktoy.
You lie there in the darkness, tangled together, his seed leaking from your aching pussy, and you realize you don’t even remember your old name anymore. You don’t want to. You don’t need to. All that matters is the man beside you, the man who remade you, who owns you, who loves you in his own fucked up way.
You drift off to sleep with his arms around you, his breath warm on your neck, and you know, with absolute certainty, that you will never escape this. You don’t want to.
You are his, now and forever.
Why would anyone ever want to go back?
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You stare at yourself in the mirror, the blue dress half-zipped, hair cascading in perfect sheets down your back, and you know this is what you were made for. Maybe it was a curse, maybe it was a blessing, but either way, you are a monument to desire now, a living idol to the man who remade you.
The old voice inside your head is a ghost, pathetic and shrill. You hear it sometimes, whining about lost freedom, lost dignity, but you drown it out with laughter—your laughter, rich and musical and so, so sweet. You have everything you ever wanted, even if you never knew it was what you wanted. Who could argue with perfection?
You remember your first dinner with your new husband, the way he looked at you across the candlelight, eyes hungry and proud. The way he reached for your hand, claiming you in public, daring anyone to challenge his ownership. The old you would have bristled, maybe even pulled away, but that’s not who you are anymore. Now, the only thing you want is to see that look of pride and hunger on his face, to know that you are the reason he walks a little taller, smiles a little wider.
You finish zipping the dress, smoothing it over your hips. The fabric hugs you like a second skin, cool and silky, and you feel a little jolt of pleasure at how it lifts and shapes your breasts, how it makes your waist look even tinier, your legs even longer. You twirl in front of the mirror, giggling at the way the skirt flares out, flashing just a hint of thigh. You wonder, for a moment, what your old friends would think if they could see you now. But then you remember: they wouldn’t recognize you. Not just the face or the body, but the way you move, the way you smile, the way you exist in the world.
You apply a fresh coat of lipstick, blood red, just the way he likes it. You wink at your reflection, and for a moment you think you see the old you lurking behind your eyes, sullen and resentful. But then the new you smiles, dazzling and bright, and the ghost vanishes.
It’s almost time. You grab your purse and slip into your highest heels, loving the way they make your calves pop, the way they force your hips to sway just so. You move through the apartment, every step a performance, every gesture calculated to delight and arouse. You see yourself reflected in every surface—glass, metal, polished marble—and each time it’s a small shock, a little thrill of pride.
You pause at the door, take a deep breath. The perfume is perfect, the makeup immaculate, the dress a masterpiece. You are ready.
The elevator is waiting, and you glide inside, the doors whispering shut behind you. You check your phone: a text from your husband, telling you how much he’s looking forward to seeing you, how he’s already hard just thinking about you. The old you would have rolled your eyes, maybe even felt a stab of revulsion. The new you just smiles, wetness blooming between your legs.
You can’t wait for dinner. You can’t wait for the way he’ll look at you, the way his hand will rest on your thigh, possessive and gentle all at once. You can’t wait for the ride home, for the way he’ll fuck you in the back seat of the car, unable to wait until you’re safely inside.
And after? Maybe tonight you’ll tell him you want to start a family. Maybe you’ll beg him for it, the way you know he wants you to, the way you know you were meant to.
You step out into the corridor, heels clicking, hips rolling, eyes forward. The other wives in the building stare, a mixture of envy and curiosity, but you just smile at them, knowing they’ll never come close. You were chosen, after all.
You reach the lobby, and there he is, your husband, waiting for you, eyes dark with want. He holds out his arm, and you take it, feeling the strength in his grip, the promise in his touch.
"Ready?" he asks, and you nod, because you are.
You leave the building together, and for the first time in your life, you feel completely, perfectly, beautifully whole.
Comments
Anonymouschanman
Loved this story definitely a new favorite for me of yours along with "alter egos" I really enjoy when the characters embrace & crave the change even if not initially :) as well as great detail. alter egos also had girl on girl which was great
altec22
I loved this new story, but also found myself confused periodically as to when a given passage was happening. For example the 1st vs 2nd time we're back in the "current" time. Both have the text towards the end with dinner in blue dress at 8 pm. Are they the same event or different ones? I'm still confused :D I'm guessing they are chronological. So you open w/ the current, and its maybe the first time the man texts at 8 pm. Then you have the memory trip of how you got here. Then you're back to current -- maybe a few days past the previous current, and he texts again for dinner.
Dropkick wombat
Thanks! Hope you like this new format and effort!
Dropkick wombat
Yeah had a hard time putting the two perspectives together smoothly
N3cRoZz Z3r0
Awesome writing. Very nice one.
Tragical
Good story overall however i found it a bit jarring with the jump to the past and all that
