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A Whole Lot of Unfinished Morph + Mental Health Update
🕑 Added 2024-10-22 17:05:12 +0000 UTCOnce again do not scroll down if Horny! (Mental Health Update)
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I'm posting these as I've got some type of energy today, I would have loved to finish them, but I can't get myself to sit down proper, my mental health is all over the place, but most of the time it hurts inside and all my energy when I think gets drained and I just wanna sleep.
I'm most likely gonna have to contact my psychologist because I can't keep being crushed like this, I'm not always down, keeping a face up in public, as the normal responses have been "You're over exaggerating" "Everyone has problems" "My trauma is worse" "Crybaby, shit happens, get over it" "Stop thinking about it and it will pass" "Are you happy now? so we can carry on like normal"
They ain't the answers that help and people do have their own problems, so it's better to hide it I've found even if it's hard to have a smile while your crumbling inside.
As for Anti depressives, I've tried once and found that they hinder joy, as much as they hinder grief, I don't want to block out my overly joyful side, as it brightens the life of others around me, but I might have no choice this time.
As long as I ain't alone, I don't think too much about it, but we can't be surrounded by people all the time and that's when it comes creeping, just writing this hurts, as I wanna keep up an illusion here as well, but since I morph alone, it gets harder and harder to do so and I need to share it with you all.
As some have been with me for years and others are new, you all deserve to know why I'm so absent right now.
I'm gonna try a little bit more too self cure, maybe chill on Discord, take some of that backlog and finish it, throw up a poll, upload the new morphs to the Discord channel... I will have to see... as just writing this, has me drained, exhausted and shaking.
Depression sucks, if anyone else is depressed hope my art brings you joy, even if the artist is a wreck right now, love you all<3
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Eli
hope youre doing alright! we miss you!
