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Ups and downs
🕑 Added 2019-03-12 19:10:38 +0000 UTC
Hi you all!
Story time!
I have been thinking about writing this damn thing for weeks now, and finally got around to actually get it done. So, here's an infodump with some important information as well as a ton of completely useless stuff. Bear with me 
So, I have been a quiet for a quite some time, and the biggest reason for that is that I'm very, very tired right now. My state of my mental health has been in steady decline since Christmas, and on top of that I have had a couple of quite big projects that had to be finished and it has drained most of my energy. I don't know why my depression is getting worse now, but at this point I know very well how the road to recovery is always two steps forward and one backward -kind of journey. I'm still desperately trying to find a therapist, but now when I finally have the money to see one, there seems to be no one with room enough for one patient in my city. Everywhere it seems to be that the line of people seeking therapists would easily go to the moon and back. So I wait...and wait, keeping up the tiresome fight.
Besides keeping the Patreon page up and doing commissions, I had a fairly big illustration job at the beginning of the year, and after that a couple of couple albums that I had to finish. I got all of them done and did a damn good job about it, and that is of course a good thing. But the anxiety attacks and the general depression with a bit too big workload definitely took a heavy toll. As a result, I have been really slow to respond notes and E-mails. I have been trying my best to keep up with them, but if someone hasn't had a response to their message, it's not because I have decided not to answer, but because the message has disappeared somewhere in the clusterfuck that is my mailbox. Feel free to remind me 
Also, I haven't been able to do streaming and my updates on any other page than my Patreon has been super slow and erratic. One could say I have the energy to do just the thing I have been paid to do, and not much else. So the commissions as well as the updates on my Patreon have been going on just as effectively as usual.
Because of the reasons I mentioned, I have decided not to take in any new commissions until I once again have the energy to do them. This doesn't of course concern those people who I have promised to do a commission and/or have already commissioned me. I'll get those drawings done just as usual, I'm just not taking new stuff in right now. I'll be not doing any streaming either. What I do, however, are the weekly piles of pics and comic pages to my Patreon (that doesn't change!), and when I have the energy, I'll be updating DA here as well. I'm still kind of looking for a place for the more NSFW stuff after the great porn purge in Tumblr, though. I have some ideas, but once again, it has to wait until I have the time and the energy for them.
I'm still alive, still taking care of myself and trying to get outside of our apartment every now and then. One of the happy things is that I'm slowly regaining my ability to concentrate on reading books, and it's a great pastime.
I hope you're all doing good, this community of people has been a great thing in my life and continues to be that, even when I'm quiet.
Wishing you all well,
Oda
Comments
Eggert Gustavsen
Just take your time my friend! Real life always comes first- as for a place for non DA stuff I use bdsmir.com and if DA force that eclipse downdate ups update onto us- I'll show all of my images there
Oddartist
Well, can't say that for sure. I believe that probably the biggest reason is that it's a first time in, like, ten years I'm not in a constant survival mode. Things have calmed down, I have been able to save some money for a buffer if something surprising happens and I'm in a happy relationship. So now is the perfect time for all those traumatic experiences and other shitty things from the past years, that I just had to put aside while concentrating on survival, to come back haunting. As said, I would need therapy to get them sorted out, but for that I would need that damn therapist.
markus baur
may i ask if your depression is partly also a seasonal thing? full spectrum lighing seems help a friend of mine who gets depressed every january ... besides that - dont let the bastards grind you down! you have lots of people oput here who love you and your work!
tickler334
We love your art but we love your well-being even more!! Your fans are thinking of you and want what is best for you!
