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Fuckery and Rainbows
🕑 Added 2020-04-29 12:35:20 +0000 UTC(I wrote this late last night but Patreon was down. Posting now. π)
This is just me stoned and rambling. Feel free to smell the flowers and move on.
Monday was a fucking weird day. I binge-listened to an incredible story-podcast called Asking For It, a queer tale of abusive relationships, gaslighting and codependence. Immersing myself in the story with my headphones on was an excellent distraction from my busy house, but it also felt like a therapy session in the ways it unpacked some of the work in healing from someone toxic.
Then I got a fucking email from my fucking ex. Saying all the right things, one of his classic moves. I fucking felt myself shrug. Even a few months ago this kind of manipulative bait would have sent me spiralling. Somehow this time it didnβt undo me. I donβt know exactly what happened. But it happened. I broke the spell with my own fucking hard work and the support of a handful of good people. It took a lot of tries, but I did it. Fuck him and his fucking too late apologies. Heβs right, the way I loved him *was* special. And he did fucking take advantage of my kindness in all of the worst fucking ways. He did it over and over. Fuck him.
I read his email but didnβt respond. I congratulated myself for my triumph. A year ago I was still heartbroken. Agonizing over the loss. Moving on seemed impossible.
Just a few moments after I read his email there was a knock at my door. A gigantic rainbow bouquet of tulips with a big red bow and a cute little unicorn pegasus stuffie was delivered to my porch. With a sweet little love note. From Max. Just to remind me that she loves me, and cheer me up. There were so many tulips I split them into little bouquets all over the house. Itβs still cold outside but I have a garden in my living room now. And someone who loves me just the way I am.
Comments
Daniel Drew
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Heart
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Sunset Ridge
I think that deserves congratulations! Well done!
Heart
Me too π sheβs so good and I love her so much
Amy
God I am so here for Max and her spectacular timing π
