Heart
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Life choices.
🕑 Added 2020-01-18 18:35:20 +0000 UTCSo I’m trying to be a mature adult. And it’s difficult sometimes.
I have this habit, classic Heart, when everything is going well and feeling manageable I up the ante and make things more challenging. It’s not exactly self-sabotage, because I’m a stubborn mother fucker and I always manage to rise to the challenge. But then what would you call it?
One of my brothers tells me this is a good strategy for video games, you add to the challenge to keep yourself from getting bored. Is this what I’m doing? Trying to make the pace of my life suit me? Am I not busy enough with the kids and my jobs and my family and my coven and my relationships and my volunteer work and my crazy wild dog? I am. (But I admit the pace has slowed down lately....)
I’m a consummate caretaker. I love having someone who needs my love and attention, but at this point in my life I’m also loving my freedom from caregiving, my time to spend frivolously on writing or binge-watching peaky blinders again just because I can. How much would this new responsibility infringe on that budding freedom? Intensely at first... do I have the time and energy to give? My husband asks “Why not just let things be easy?” It’s a valid question.
I can admit this would be an impulsive emotional decision, uncharacteristically spontaneous. I can admit this decision would align with my Too Muchness. I can admit it would put a strain on the peace and quiet I’ve been enjoying. I can also admit that there’s something inside of me that’s egging me on: “fuck it” “do it” “life is for living”.
Patrons, should I adopt this fucking puppy? She’s the sweetest beast with the most gentle temperament and I love her big feet. She’s also a cane corso mix who is destined to be a 100 lb beast. My house is small but my heart is big. I’m trying to slow down my impulses and sit with the question. That’s growth, right?
Comments
Aaron Lybrand
Have you decided yet?? I want to scream dooooo ittttttttt, but I’m aware I also tend to impulsively crazy my own life, so I may not be the best judge. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Natalie Rose
Oh my heart!! What a sweetie
Heart
Never!!! 😜 I’m not a lap dog kinda girl. Beasts or nuthin. ♥️
Heart
😂
Heart
Not finishing that sentence?
Sunset Ridge
Sorry, I'm on the 'too big' side. Get a lap dog.
Paul Ricciardi
She is cute, but I’m
Karmen Fierce
I'm 100% the same way and I say love that pup!!!!!
Amy
Keep the puppy, we love the puppy, LOOK AT THE BABY!
Kristan Hamilton
If you have the time, energy, and space in your life, I say go for it! I can’t say I have ever regretted bringing an extra critter into my home. Listen to your heart, it will tell you what’s best for you :)
Leoni Jorna
She is absolutely gorgeous! Just bear in mind a Corso mix may need a lot of training in the years to come, only you know what's right for you now... Just don't rush into anything (from a compulsive realist!)
Heart
And her personality matches those eyes. She’s just a gentle little sweetie. I’m so in love.
Emily Stewart
(but also your butt is great so maybe don’t take all of my advice!)
Emily Stewart
THOSE EYES!! how could anyone say no to those!!!! please adopt her and change this to a puppy pics patreon
