Bmtbguy
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Late feedback and some explanations
🕑 Added 2023-03-26 22:36:49 +0000 UTCI know this is not you guys' problem, but as my Patrons I feel I must give you some feedback.
This is by far one of my worst working months in history. Even having stuff prepared to go one month in advance (assembly, draft and 1 third of the chapter test-rendered), my production this month was horrible. If it was not by the Eden idea and base scene already prepared this would be my most sorry month ever.
Ain't speaking about final delivery, I'm speaking about creative sustainability.
Yes, there were creative sparkles, lots of improvements, it was fun, but man, why so hard?
Add to it the fact I'm still learning iRay, got sick and had problems IRL, I can tell I feel horrible right now in every possible way, barely hanging until the end of the month but I did it, FIRST, because I love doing this, second, because I know you deserve better.
The month is almost over and I'm achieving my objectives: First, the final panels of Cheap Tricks are rendering and I will have the next delivery soon, having the proofreader final version as soon I finish the retouches.
Second, I'm restored from my sick state and my health is okaish. I didn't want to bother you earlier this month, but this is very important because it was the trigger to a lot of other things that made me realize that my life can't stay the way it is right now.
Third, the dream is on, and fuck all the rest. As long as you support me I'll be making this my main work. I'm cutting my ties with mainstream works and use the "safety net" I build through 2 decades of learning and prepping as a support system until I heal my mind from this sick world. If this takes off for real we shall see more productions as soon my general state of mind improves. Meaning that I could be back writing whole chapters in a day, something I lack steam right now. Wish me luck.
For the renders, unfinished test at Tyson's, Jessica's problematic old hair fix and that check in eyes position - iRay make them look a bit weird, lol.
Talk to you guys again soon.
Live the Dream!
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soliwan
You expect to much of yourself. Look after your own wellbeing first. We're all here beside you, ready to live the dream together.
