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day nineteen. Inspired by you tonight.
🕑 Added 2025-12-19 22:46:13 +0000 UTCThis post was inspired by Marsi.
Thank you for cheering me on, for believing in me, and for naming something I sometimes forget to name myself. Your hopeless romantic heart made me pause and ask why I keep this ritual… why I keep loving the way I do.
There is nothing quite like the sound of long hair being braided.
It’s faint, almost secret, but it’s there—a sweet, rhythmic whisper. Like distant footsteps crunching softly through snow as a kind stranger makes their way to your door with an unexpected surprise.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve held this nightly ritual: silently braiding my hair and letting the day fall away. If hair holds memories, then I want to treat it gently. It carries a decade’s worth of Christmases—some spent at home, running free in the fields of Poland, laughing without knowing how precious those moments were. Others spent crying alone here, when I didn’t yet know a single soul.
I’ve braided my hair at night through all of it.
It connects my past self to the present me, like a quiet thread that never breaks. And today, I feel such gratitude for my hair—for how it continues to grow, even when I don’t always know how I will go on.
I dream of winding down with my lover one day.
Of braiding my hair together in silence. Of placing the years of my life into someone’s soft, careful hands.
The thought overwhelms me.
How gentle the touch would be.
How beautiful it would feel to be truly seen—and taken exactly as I am. Not just for who I am now, but for all the years I’ve been.
I think this is why hopeless romantics keep hoping.
Because we carry so much love inside us, and it has to go somewhere. Because even when the world is heavy, we still believe in kindness, in tenderness, in being chosen gently. Because we try. Because we feel deeply. Because we keep showing up with open hearts, even when it would be easier not to.
We deserve love—not because we are perfect, but because we keep loving anyway.
And maybe that hope itself is the most beautiful thing we hold.
🧡
love you, mean it!
~felka
Comments
Jace_unamed0719
I’d love to do this with my lover if the chance ever comes
Maddix
I love this. It's funny how the little gestures like that sometimes outweigh the bigger events in a relationship or friendship
Dart011
Several years ago, this was a routine my now ex and I did. She always would braid it before bed, and one night, I asked if I could do it for her. It became a regular occurrence. Even if I wasn't going to bed myself (night shifts and stuff), I'd still take time to just sit with her, usually her resting against my shins, and just tie it all together. We didn't always talk; it wasn't necessary. We just enjoyed our presence and the gesture it represented. Those are some of the memories I miss most
