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A Note About The State of Things
🕑 Added 2022-10-10 20:37:42 +0000 UTCTL;DR -- I will be spending an length of time offline (possibly not returning until 2023). I absolutely intend to come back because I love drawing, but stay subscribed at your own risk. Which ever way you choose, as always, I thank you for your support!
Hey guys,
Just writing here because y'all ought to know -- I haven't been doing so great over the past year. My 4 month trip to the US didn't go so well, and since I've been back in Australia since August, things haven't improved very much. I have wanted for a long time to bring all of you good news, but sadly there simply hasn't been very much.
In nearly all respects, my situation is fine. I am not in dire financial straits, I am not injured, and overall my physical health is strictly okay. But for the longest time, I have been grappling with a fairly severe depression (and possibly undiagnosed ADHD, but the jury is still out on that). This depression manifests in many ways, but suffice to say, it affects me to such an extent that I struggle to find the motivation to draw, or even finding the process mentally painful; a particularly upsetting prospect when I know how much joy it's capable of bringing to me.
I have sought help from mental health professionals, and I have recently received some medication. The specifics of the situation are neither here nor there, but I expect this is only the beginning, and will require a lot of time to pass. This leaves me in a position where I can only rely on what I can personally control in order to mend my mental health situation over this waiting period, which brings me to the purpose of this message:
I will be spending a significant amount of time offline and AFK. In fact, I will de-facto not have a computer. This means I will not be contributing any art to this Patreon in the immediate future (possibly not until some time during 2023).
How long will it be? I'm really not sure. But I don't expect to be back in November. December? Maybe. 2023? Most likely. But the specific timing really isn't up to me. In any case, it doesn't feel fair to allow you to continue your pledges without knowing the about my situation.
Sadly, staying away from computers, while I believe it will lead to an improvement of my mental health situation over time, it also means that I won't be able to draw digital art. No computer means no production. But similarly, my depression also means no production. So no matter which way I slice it, this Patreon is going to end up neglected.
So, as I touched on earlier -- there is no obligation to stay on this Patreon while I'm not making content. While the money is nice, I'm not particularly desperate for income. Over the course of this year, I've felt tremendously guilty about how little I've delivered, when I wanted to bring you guys so much more. Your support has always meant so, so much to me. And I'm looking forward to the day when all of this mental strife is behind me so I can be the artist that I want to be.
The Patreon will stay open, so if you want to stay on board, you are by all means welcome. But no matter what you choose, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your love, support and kindness.
I hope to see you all again soon in a brighter future. :)
Comments
Alphazan
I hope everything goes well for you man and things will be okay. We'll be here when you get back. Just focus on yourself and take care. Happy thanksgiving from the US. Happy holidays and Happy new years too if you don't come back by then
Beatleboy62
Hope everything goes well for you, and will await your return whenever you feel good!
