sissyjizelle
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I have to diddle
🕑 Added 2023-05-06 05:03:54 +0000 UTCMy Girlfriend/Mistress and I were playing the other day, and she has introduced some new rules for me. (with my input and consent) She made me move the camera in my office so that she can see what’s on my computer screen. That comes in to play because she has decreed that from here on out, I’m not allowed to watch straight porn when I masturbate.
She even decreed that sissy hypno, or anything with breasts or female bodies is not allowed. I’m required to watch plain old gay porn. This a really a challenge for me, because aside from the turn on of being dominated, and humiliated, this is not my thing at all. She knows that, and the fact that she’s enforcing this rule is sexy as fuck.
I’m required to message her a half hour before I masturbate, because she has the right to tell me no, or to make me do it in a certain way if she wants. Since I never know if she’s watching or not, I don’t dare disobey this rule. And now I have to watch gay porn when I masturbate. One time I told her I was going to masturbate, and in a half hour I started. I sat in front of my computer with nothing on the screen, just using my imagination to think of big tits, or whatever it was I was thinking of, when suddenly I heard her voice come over the intercom.
“Where’s the porn?” She asked, annoyed. I explained that I didn’t want to watch gay porn, and so I was opting to just not watch anything. She explained that watching nothing was not an option and that I had to watch gay porn any time I masturbate. As punishment, she told me that I had to edge myself for 8 minutes every 20 minutes for the next two hours while watching men suck cock. She said she was going out with friends and when she got back, she’d check in on me.
Just because she was going out was no indicator whether or not she’d be checking in on my camera during the time I was supposed to be doing it, so I had no choice but to obey. I fully admit, this domination was such a turn on it was a pleasure, but my god did I have a bad case of blue balls by the time she came home. I was DYING to cum and begged her for permission when she got home and checked in on me. If you guessed she didn’t let me come that night, you’re correct.
She did let me come the next day thank Goddess, but my relief wasn’t meant to last long. A few mornings later we were messaging and talking about my tiny cock. (We’ve really been into small cock humiliation lately.) And she added to my masturbation rules. She told me that my cock was too small to be allowed out of my panties when I masturbate, and that I just had to rub my cock through my panties to cum.
This combined with the gay porn was starting to make me worry if I’d be able to cum at all. She didn’t wait to see if it’d work. She got me out of bed and ordered me to go masturbate for the next 30 minutes to gay porn like this. What a fucking turn on that was for me. She’d never ordered me to masturbate before. I’d always had to beg. And the humiliation of rubbing my clitty through panties was so great that I actually did start to think I could cum, even watching gay porn. Then as I was doing that, she sent me my next message. “Use only one finger. Your pinky. On your left hand (I’m right-handed)” Well holly fuck, she took things to a new level that morning. I was so turned on by how evil she was being that it was actually easy to cum. She also made me eat it, which is the fourth time in a row she’s done that. Horny me loves it. Post orgasm me HATES it.
When I finished, she informed me that this is how I have to masturbate from now on. It’s so humiliating, and sexy I love it. I’ve only done it that time so far, but I can’t wait to do it again with her watching and hopefully laughing at me. She’s coming over tomorrow night, and I hope we’ll be playing, so I’m not asking permission tonight because I want to be nice and horny when she comes over.
Comments
Sissy Jizelle
For me it's the biggest turn on too. Right now I'm doing a ton of "co-writing" on her script because she's really unsure of herself being very new to BDSM. I leave that part out of these narratives I write, but the good news is she is incrementally getting more sure, and even bit by bit is thinking up things herself to do. As far as regretting it, that's a complicated subject. On one hand, I'd LOVE to get to a point where she is so addicted to her power, and has figured out how to coerce me autonomously that I have an "Oh fuck, I'm really actually being dominated with no choice here." On the other hand, we have discussed safe words at great length, and as is rightly so, we both understand that they supersede everything. However, for the moment we've got a nice balance going. If I use the word "yellow" to slow things down or back off just a bit, she honors that, but later there will be some minor consequence. Something I can live with, but won't really love. If I use "red" to stop immediately, and back out then the consequence is no sissy play for several months. That one I calibrated myself, because if I am genuinely suffering mentally or physically and it's too much, I have an out. But if it's something I can tolerate and just don't want it a bit, I'll opt to power through it to not miss out on play for such a long time. This system is working for us.
Aika
It sounds like she's really enjoying all this too, which is the biggest turn on of all of you ask me! Also her being cruel and inventive autonomously is pretty fucking amazing. Although she's being SO cruel that I wonder if you'll be regretting this all soon enough! xD
