Akolmfi
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(Update Please Read) Taking a breather. Not in a space mentally/literally that I can make content right now.
🕑 Added 2022-10-24 15:15:31 +0000 UTCTLDR: Taking a break Till at least the start of November. Will try to get a Halloween audio out for the 31st but don't count on it. Cause of this break is At Home And Mental Stress/Issues out of my control.
Hey cuties. I've probably just had one of the most stressful weeks of my life just now. I don't wanna get personal but I feel I should at least give some context for why these past months things have been slow. I've mentioned it before but as a refresher + new things,
I've had difficulty communicating with the people in my household for when I can record, making it so some days/weeks I have only 1-2 days to record for 2-3 hour periods. This is more on me and my trauma/anxiety I have from years ago that I need to work on. A family member of mine suffered symptoms of a heart attack this past week so I was scared of them actually dying, then they severely injured their leg and are bed ridden to the point I am walking them around the house till we get them crutches or a cane and my youngest sibling has been Ill on and off these past months. I've always been bad with venting or speaking my mind to others so I tend to bottle up emotions and it's lead to this now where I can't even bring myself to work right now.
I was really trying to balance all this, trying to be positive on the outside as well as keep making content regularly and I should have known better then this.
Yesterday was a complete breakdown and I just spiraled.
Today though, while things are looking better I don't anticipate them staying that way and even if they where too I am still in the mental state or have the alone time at home to work.
I've been thinking of ways to make things easier but they all come with other issues so I just want to try and slow down a bit. Taking the rest of this month off and decided while I relax what I wanna do.
No. I am not going to stop making content. I just now know more of my limits.
If I am being honest a new schedule would probably be 2 audios a week rather then the 3 I try to put out. I think it would really help a lot in making sure I make content on time and don't have to keep apologizing for missing content dates.
Makes me sad cause I was looking forward too all the Halloween audios but I'm not going to lie and say I could make them even if I wanted too.
Anyway, this was long but I hope I can at least let you all understand a bit of what's going on.
Again, NO. I am not leaving. This is a temporary time off.
The last thing I want is to keep taking time like this cause creating is what I love doing. But I think with a new look on how I plan on doing things I can deliver content, on time and hopefully stuff you all will like.
If it means one less audio a week for content at least every week I think that's for the better.
Thanks for reading and cuties. Please take care of yourselves. Realize when you need time to yourself, a break or to just be alone. Your mental wellbeing will make things so much better off for you.
Much love. - Ak :3
Comments
Angel
Hey, I understand what you're going through, I was and sometimes still am in that headspace (funny fact, your voice is the only thing right now to help me keep calm and less stressed out, so thank you for that) so please baby don't stress too much over us. We're be fine and we're not going anywhere. Everyone needs a breather from time to time, and mental health is very important. Take care of yourself and try to find a way to let out some of those emotions please.
Akolmfi
thanks dear.
EmeticPoison
Ak sweetheart you do not have to apologize for anything AT ALL. We love you so much PLEASE take all the time you need for your own health and safety. We will always be here when you get back, none of us will be upset if it takes a bit before the next audio. Take as much time as you need, i hope you’re okay and you have our support if you ever need to vent. Nothing will make us happier than knowing you are doing okay. <3333333
Neal Cross
Wish you best of luck get well soon
Lia
Thanks for the update, friend. Sending hugs, and you know you can always talk to me <3
Akolmfi
Thanks so much Daisy. You take care too dear.
Akolmfi
Appreciate it a lot dear. Will keep you all in mind. Thank you.
Warriorcatv2
Hey, take as much time as you need (: when I first joined I saw how much you were putting out & was a bit worried you were working too hard. Hope things sort out soon for you. If you ever need anything just say, I'm sure many of us would be happy to pitch in
Cosmic Daisy
We are here to support you AK. Sending you so so many big hugs and wishes that things ease for you. You are not alone. 🫂
Akolmfi
I appreciate everything you cuties have done for me and I cannot stress how much better my life is now vs 2 years ago. I'm a different person now and I love this person more then I have before. I'm gonna do my best to make sure I'm in a much healthier place so I can continue doing what I wanna do. Being here with yall. Take care and I'll be in dms if u wanna say hi or anything. Much love cuties. Thanks for being you.
