Akolmfi
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(Sadly Another Update) Never been this mentally out of it. Sorry but I need to take more time.
🕑 Added 2023-02-11 19:56:13 +0000 UTCNot gonna say much cause looking at my computer is making my wanna throw up.
I have no clue what is mentally blocking me from being able to record anything.
My sleep schedule has been the worst it's been since I was 18, I'm having my "ADHD" moments where I just sit down and space out for hours and while typing this I am on the verge of an anxiety attack.
Something for me needs to change and I'm sorry but making audios that take personality and me to feel okay isn't possible.
I have some things recorded that I am hoping I can upload but I'm so sorry to say I won't be able to make content for a bit more.
Not giving any dates on a "return" cause honestly even thinking about recording/making things is spinning my brain badly.
I need to sit down, rest up, chill out and try to get back into my swing.
Sorry to all of you for the lack of content. Especially those here on the Patreon.
I should have just taken a longer break but hindsight is hindsight. Now I know that the issue is something more than I thought and this wasn't just something small.
I'm stressed, tired and need to do a restart on myself.
I'll still be here, I'll answer anything u need and again. Broken record here.
Sorry and apologies for the lack of anything content wise. Hoping to come back bigger and better but no promises rn.
Mwa mwa - Akolmfi
Comments
Lemon Cake
Thanks for the update but please try not to feel bad about taking a longer break or taking care of yourself (easier said than done, I know)! Life is throwing thing after thing at you right now so it’s completely understandable that you need more time- you’re a human, after all, not a content-producing machine. Please take as much time as you need to take care of yourself and be kind to yourself, not so that you can get back to making recordings, but for your own well-being <3 Even if you end up announcing that you’re coming back and then decide you need to extend it again, we’ll completely understand. The most important thing is that you’re feeling alright!
Lia Christine
Hey, you're not being a broken record. You're going through something and it is more than okay to take time for yourself no matter how long that might be! Don't beat yourself up about it please, your well-being is worth more. Just do what's best for you; that's all that matters. Also, I like what acutefish said a lot and I second all of that!! You don't owe anything to anyone and I hope you feel better soon! 💜
acutefish
Please please take all the time you need to take care of yourself. Mental health is so important, and if you’re getting this much anxiety from thinking of working, it’s okay to not do it. More than anything we care about you, not what you can provide. You deserve to care for yourself. You do not owe anything to anyone. All that’s important is that you get better.
Akolmfi
I feel so fucking bad doing this over and over but I'm anxiety and nervouce crying just thinking about doing this. I'm scared, tired and I know I want to work. Something just isn't clicking and I don't know what it is. I'm sorry to each and everyone of you. You've been so kind supporting me and I can't even bring myself to work lately. I'm gonna bounce back. I just wish it didn't take me this long to realize something is actually wrong...
