Jon Steinke
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Chapter 40: The Litany of the Lost
🕑 Added 2025-10-27 11:25:01 +0000 UTCAUTHOR'S NOTE:
Hey folks! Thank you all so very much for your support, and for reading this story. For those of you that might have missed it... The Sovereign's Toll reached the #1 spot on Rising Stars sometime my Saturday morning! Insane! Y'all are amazing!
And without further ado, I've got a few things to share up at the top here:
Upon Msharlo1's excellent advice, if/when y'all hit the next milestone to release more bonus chapters, I'm going to spread them out over non-chapter days. Considering there's a good chance that threshold is breached tomorrow (yep, you did it), then I'll post chapters on Tu/Th this week, as well as M/W/F. That'll kind of be the plan going forward.
I've made a significant revision to the top of chapter 32 based upon Tadas' feedback. It's to help clarify some of Caleb's thoughts about how he handled things at the Adventurer's Guild after he returned from his goblin hunt. I think it makes Caleb's character arc stronger and more natural. The details will be in the post note. Thanks Tadas.
Lastly, the next few chapters will be more slice of life, with CH40 being a bit more emotional. The tournament goodness will really start with CH43, with 44 being the first official fight. Just in case you wanted to bank a few. With the bonus chapters that means all of those will be out Friday.
My backlog is cooked. Thank you so much for your incredible support! But with this, I'm officially out of runway. Pray for me? Lol.
The past six days had been a blur of controlled violence and relentless study, a self-imposed ordeal forged from fear and a father’s protective urge. Mornings were a ritual of shared pain in the garrison yard, where Caleb pushed his exhausted body through spear forms while simultaneously guiding Corinne and Leo, correcting their stances and honing their instincts. Afternoons were a descent into the dense, academic world of Selara’s archive, his enhanced mind devouring texts on botany, forestry, and the ecological dynamics of the Virethane. His nights belonged to the silent judgment of the stables, where he drilled his techniques until muscle failure set in, each thrust a desperate attempt to close the gap between his current weakness and the strength his new responsibilities demanded. Through all this activity, his glimmerdew moss contract had also been fufilled, yielding him the crucial herb to hasten the decay of his Spiritual Contamination. Now, on the morning the Reaping Festival started, he rolled his shoulders and a deep, cellular protest ground through his muscles, making every movement a conscious act of will.
"You look like you wrestled a mosshide bear and came out second best."
Corinne's voice drifted through the doorway of his small room, the words flat and stripped of their usual brightness. She stood silhouetted against the hall's dim light, clutching a bundle of dark fabric, with Leo lingering behind her shoulder. His perpetual fidgeting was gone, replaced by an unusual stillness. It was a quiet that seeped from the hall, a hush so deep it felt as if the entire village were holding its breath.
She extended the cloth out to him, her movements stiff. "I thought you might need one."
"Thanks." Caleb accepted the garment, and the scent of pine dye and cedar from storage rose from its folds. The coarse wool felt rough against his calloused palms, a simple, homespun texture. He swung it around his shoulders, its heavy folds settling over his boiled leather armor like a shroud.
It was a uniform of shared loss. Looking at Corinne and Leo, their youthful energy extinguished beneath the somber green they also wore, he realized it was the same for everyone trickling past the doorway in a sea of silent, pine-colored figures.
The three of them merged with the quiet stream of villagers flowing from the inn's common room toward the heart of Deadfall. No one spoke. The usual morning commerce, the merchants hawking wares and the rhythmic clang of Yorrin's hammer had given way to the soft murmur of hundreds of feet moving in unison.
That rhythmic, shuffling whisper pricked at the edges of his awareness, a key turning a lock in his mind. A small hand, lost in the warm, firm grip of his mother’s. He smelled pine needles crushed underfoot, mixed with the faint, sweet scent of the mosses Meriel always carried in her pouches. He felt the phantom touch of her green cloak brushing against his cheek as she leaned down, her voice a soft murmur against the cadence of marching feet. "We walk for those who can't, my little sapling. So they know we haven't forgotten." Saturated with her dignified grief that a young Thal couldn’t comprehend, the memory was so vivid it left an ache behind his ribs. For the boy whose body he wore, this ritual was an annual lesson in loss, guided by the person he had loved most.
This was unlike any observance from his previous life, where holidays meant garish decorations and manufactured joy. Here, in the faint light of early morning, genuine solemnity replaced artificial cheer. Caleb studied the faces around him: weathered adventurers whose eyes held the burden of hard-won survival, grieving families clutching memorial tokens, and laborers maintaining their silent dignity even in sorrow.
The authenticity was sobering. This was a genuine acknowledgment of sacrifice, a truth etched into the lines on every face. Yet he was an observer at an intimate family gathering, an outsider wearing borrowed sorrow. His memories belonged to another world, another life. He was merely a visitor masquerading as a mourner.
The procession wound through Deadfall's narrow streets before spilling into a grove that bordered the village's eastern edge. Ancient Sitka spruces towered overhead, their immense trunks rising like the columns of some forgotten cathedral. Beneath their spreading branches, simple wooden markers stood in precise rows, each bearing a name and date carved with reverent care. At the clearing's heart, a weathered stone altar bore the accumulated offerings of the morning thus far, tools of craft and harvest that spoke to lives well-lived.
Caleb watched Yorrin approach the altar with measured steps and place a finely crafted spearhead upon the stone. The acute clink of steel on granite was loud against the morning’s quiet. Gareth followed, his enormous frame moving with unexpected grace as he added a portion of cured meat, its smoky aroma mingling with the forest's eternal perfume of healthy decay and fresh new growth.
They bring the fruits of their labor, the evidence of their place in this world. What do I have?
But then the ache in his shoulders reasserted itself. A deep, grinding fatigue that lived in his bones. The raw patches on his palms where new calluses had formed. The exhaustion that came from pushing beyond his limit time and again.
He had made an offering written in sweat and sleepless nights, an invisible tribute paid in exhaustion and agony. Six days of agony poured into a single purpose: keeping the two people beside him alive. His contribution was invisible and personal, yet as substantial as any blade or bushel.
A village elder stepped forward, her face a map of lines earned through decades of frontier life. Her voice carried clearly through the morning air, each word precisely enunciated.
"We gather to honor those who were taken, so that we might endure."
She unrolled a scroll whose edges were worn. Her tone took on the rhythm of ritual, each name a hammer blow against the silence.
"Therios Patraic, claimed by the Virethane's mists."
The crowd's response rose like a tide. "We remember."
"Catrin Nieves, lost to spore-rot fever."
"We remember."
The litany continued, painting a grim portrait of frontier existence. Adventurers who ventured too deep and never returned. Children claimed by magical diseases before they Awakened. Guards who fell beneath spirit beast claws. With each name, Caleb’s shoulders slumped a fraction further, the sharing of these strangers’ losses compounding the grief for the family he would never see again.
"Tarquin Lupus, taken by a mistweaver den."
Beside him, Corinne's shoulders went rigid for just an instant. A barely perceptible flinch that spoke of personal loss. Caleb looked over at her, truly seeing the young woman beneath the innkeeper’s daughter, and the ache of losing a friend paralleled his own.
Several names later, the elder’s voice delivered a name that struck a chord of borrowed memory.
"Rufus Caliban, fell during the Reaping Tournament."
The name snagged in his mind, pulling a fragment of Thal's past to attention. He was hurrying past the barracks with a delivery, a year younger and trying to stay unnoticed. Two off-duty guards leaned against the stone wall, their voices carrying on the damp air.
"Put my coin on Caliban this year," one said, polishing a gauntlet. "Kid's a monster."
The other snorted. "No bet. Saw him in the yard yesterday. Moves like a ghost. He'll walk through the whole lot of 'em."
The memory dissolved, leaving only the elder’s last words hanging in the air. Fell during the Reaping Tournament.
It wasn’t that people died. He knew that. He had compartmentalized the danger, viewing it as a statistical risk, a tragic accident that happened to the unprepared.
But Rufus had been a monster. The one they were betting on. He was prepared, talented, and still, he had fallen.
The unpleasant truth washed through Caleb, scouring away his calculated assessments. This wasn't a risk to be managed; it was a meat grinder that consumed even its favorites. He had been training Corinne and Leo to be competent. He understood that the competition held certain perils. But Rufus's end, despite the guard's praise, redefined the stakes. This was not a contest for the merely skilled—it was a gauntlet that consumed even its most formidable. The true extent of the hazard settled over him, exceeding what he had envisioned.
The elder's voice continued its mournful roll, but the words became distant noise. They could die. I can't lose them too! The terror was a frantic pulse in his sternum, a cold sweat breaking out across his skin.
[Perfect Memory] didn't just activate. It detonated, rendering a scene that made the surrounding grove disperse as he was submerged in the past.
A summer afternoon in his backyard. The smell of charcoal and propane, of grass clippings and blooming roses. Evelynn walking toward him across the lawn, condensation beading on two chilled bottles in her hands, her hair catching the light like spun gold and her smile holding all the warmth he'd ever known. Behind her, Jack chased a red rubber ball with single-minded determination, his laughter pure music in the afternoon air. Katie sat at their weathered picnic table, nose buried in a book but glancing up to share that secret smile that made him feel ten feet tall.
The memory arrived with vivid sensory detail. Humid air on his skin. Barbecue smoke mixed with the hoppy taste of an IPA. The light impact of Jack's small body as he launched himself into a hug. The passing contentment of an ordinary moment, made ideal by the people who shared it.
A moment he'd never fully appreciated until it was gone forever.
A choked sound tore from his throat.
Caleb turned blindly. He stumbled away from the ceremony, his vision swimming. He found shelter behind one of the grove's ancient guardians and pressed his forehead against the coarse bark, its rough, cool surface a welcome abrasion in a world suddenly made of shadows. The sorrow he’d held at bay for weeks finally breached his defenses, a flash flood of memory and loss that carried him away into mourning.
Silent sobs wracked his frame. Tears carved hot tracks down his cheeks. Each one carried the burden of love lost and time that could never be reclaimed. He wept for the life that had been stolen from him, the family that would never know his fate, and the simple joys he had once taken for granted until they were gone.
Time held no meaning. He might have stood there for minutes or hours, lost in the storm of his own anguish. Eventually, he became aware of a presence nearby. Not intrusive. Simply there.
Corinne and Leo had followed him. They offered no platitudes and asked no questions. Corinne placed her palm on his shoulder, her grip firm and steadying, while Leo stopped a few feet away to grant him space, his expression holding a quiet maturity he didn't typically display.
Their silence was its own form of eloquence. They recognized something in his grief that words couldn't touch, perhaps because they carried their own losses. They knew some pain was too deep for comfort, too raw for easy answers.
They simply stood with him, sharing the burden without trying to diminish it. It was the gift of presence without judgment.
Slowly, the storm passed. Caleb's sobs subsided into shuddering breaths. He became aware of the cool morning air tightening the tear-damp skin on his face. He drew a shaky breath, the oppressive load inside him settling into the hollowness he'd learned to carry.
He reached up and covered Corinne's palm with his own, his fingers trembling as he squeezed gently in wordless gratitude. When he finally raised his head to look at them both, he saw their faces. Corinne's eyes were wide and shimmering with unshed tears. Leo met his gaze directly, his own eyes filled with a quiet strength Caleb had never seen in him, and spoke so softly the words were almost part of the forest's hush.
"Some things… you can't replace. But we remember."
The isolation he’d felt at the ceremony’s start dissolved in their shared silence.
I'm not alone.
That thought was a fragile but real anchor in this harsh world. But now that anchor carried an extra burden. He looked from Corinne’s worried face to Leo’s steady one, and his grief transformed into a hard, protective fire. The tournament was not just an opportunity for advancement or a chance to prove their worth. It was a threat to the only family he had left. He would do whatever it took to keep them safe, even if it meant exposing the true extent of his abilities and abandoning the careful facade of weakness he'd maintained.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Chapter 32 TLDR: Caleb stops to think through the ramifications of selling his loot publicly. Decides he's OK with it.
Chapter 32 revision, as Caleb is about the enter the Adventurer's Hall at the top of the chapter.
He stopped just outside the entrance, the worn wooden door a barrier between him and the decision he was about to make.
What am I even doing?
The question filled him with doubt. Should he slip around to the side entrance? Try to handle this quietly, in private? Was that even possible in a village this small? People had already seen him walk through town covered in blood and mud. They'd connect the battered half-elf with whoever turned in the goblin haul. The gossip was already spreading.
And did it really matter anymore?
He'd been playing "Thal" for two months now, and no one had questioned it. He'd learned that his status wasn't something that could be ripped from his skull by casual examination. The fact that he was a recycled soul with what were probably anomalous powers remained his secret. What was the actual risk here? Being recognized as a martial prodigy? There were worse labels to carry.
Conscription was the real concern. The idea of losing his autonomy, of being forced to fight other people, made his skin crawl. But the Legion didn't just wage war against other nations. They had entire divisions dedicated to clearing dungeons and managing the aggressive local fauna. If it came to that, maybe it wouldn't be the nightmare he imagined.
And then there were his goals.
He wasn't anywhere near strong enough to protect himself the way he needed to be. The resources rattling in his pack represented more money than he could have earned in months at the inn. Maybe even years. He needed that gold to get stronger, and the Adventurer's Guild offered resources, training, and connections he couldn't access any other way. His instincts were screaming that this was an opportunity to network and build social capital. Walking away from that would be stupid.
More than all of that, though, he was tired.
Bone-deep, soul-crushing exhaustion pressed down on him. He just wanted to get this done and collapse into a real bed.
He pushed the door open.
Comments
Jon Steinke
I was going more for reverent tradition to make the world feel lived in ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Bookworm bibliophile
" We remember" that was really really cringe similier to how he and the people around him reacted when he was accepted at the guild.
Jon Steinke
Excellent! Thank you Toknightly!
Jon Steinke
Thank for the kind words and great advice Jeremiah! I will do my best!
Toknightly
The chapter 32 revision is top notch. The story really needed it and it did a great job of filling that disconnect
Jeremiah
Glad to see the incredible success this story is having. It's well deserved. Please set reasonable goals and make an effort to avoid burnout. We have all seen authors chasing the run as a story gets popular and it often leads to burnout if not addressed. Don't overdo it! Looking forward to what comes next.
