zmeydros
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October 2023 Update
🕑 Added 2023-10-29 22:40:16 +0000 UTCI am 90% done with the second half of the eggnant (loving couple) story.
TL;DR I've been delayed by major changes to my life (starting on hormones and something I'll post about later) that will lead to increased productivity, but I'm currently in the middle of. The changes have made it so I'm very likely to broaden the kinks I write and my writing will get even better.
Change 1 = Starting Hormones
I started estrogen and progesterone without T blockers (I'm a herm, I want some T to stick around!). A hundred different problems I'd been having with my attention span, my mental health, and my physical health (not life-threatening, but things like IBS and inflammation in my sinuses and such) have disappeared practically overnight.
Problems I've always had with relationships, where I don't feel affection for stretches and can't find my feelings of love, are gone. I've been able to repair relationships that I haven't been present enough for. I'm a better wife to Sarah than ever before and we're happier than ever before.
I'm growing tiddies already! They started only two weeks after I started taking E. My doctor thinks I might be genetically intersexed or something because I'm having one of the strongest responses to girl hormones she's ever seen. She's trying to get approval for my insurance for genetic testing. I hope it gets approved and I find out I'm a genetic mosaic. XD
The downside is that I have all sorts of emotions now and I'm learning to process them. I've been crying frequently and experiencing all sorts of emotions in the middle of the night. My sleep has suffered a lot. But I'm overall more functional when I'm tired. It's been really crazy despite being overall good. I'm happier than ever.
Change 2 = Something I'll Post About Soon
Unlocking all my emotions unlocked parts of my brain that I didn't even realize were there. It's been very distracting, very positive, and also incredibly overwhelming. I have support, but OMG, I thought I was going insane for several days. No longer think that, but still. I'm lucky I got any writing done at all in the last two weeks.
That said, this discovery is going to make me able to write kinks I've never written before and make me more efficient than ever at getting words out. I have a long post written up about it and I'll be putting it up here in a couple days.
Things To Look Forward To
Second half of eggnant taur story will be out within a week from now. (Don't know if I'll make it by the end of the month. You'll understand when I post about Change 2. It was a MAJOR disruption for two weeks of this month.
Comic Page from Foxinuhhbox that I'll be posting soon.
Voting for the next tail virus story that y'all wanted to see.
Art of Sadie with a little hot story about hir.
Me resuming work on "Remiel's Enlightenment." I've reconnected with my LA girlfriend Akiko and she helped me figure out exactly what the story was missing. I'm super excited to continue it.
Further work to bring life to the Wild West story. I've gotten wonderful ideas and am still developing stuff for it.
A full on hypno story. Change 2 is an incredible thing that opened me up to kinks I had struggled to implement in the past.
I might write a Korps story. Also due to Change 2, which helped me channel and understand my anger. The Korps universe is very dystopian and the stories in it are often fueled by anger at our world's current status quo. Being able to harness my anger is opening me to being able to write in that universe and ideas are brewing.
Lastly
I'm not overwhelmed by any of this and am feeling amazing. I never thought I'd be this free of anxiety. I never thought I'd feel this alive, this present, and this in love with those close to me. I thought there was something wrong with me my entire life and I finally feel like I'll be okay, that something terrible isn't just over the horizon, waiting to destroy me. My mental health has always been a challenge and I finally have the tools I need to make real change in my life that benefits myself and everyone around me. Estrogen is a huge part of that puzzle. The rest is...well, I don't want to give y'all spoilers.
Thank you for your patience during this period of great change for me. It'll be worth the wait, I'm sure.
Comments
Zmeydros
It's mainly to solve a mystery about my body that's been something people have noticed my whole life.
Lupusvir
The genetic testing sounds really cool. Hope it goes through. Would be interested in how it affects the person. Also because it sounds like you would enjoy it.
