Nerodith
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Well, hello there.
🕑 Added 2023-05-09 22:58:53 +0000 UTC
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey. It's been a long time (；´∀｀)
WARNING : long rambling incoming.
Uh, yeah, sorry for disappearing, I think I owe you guys an explanation especially since I was supposed to return in autumn 2020 and, yeah... In my defense, I had a real reason for not coming back then even though I said I would. My dog unfortunately died a few weeks after my last post, and as you can guess, I was kind of down. I also mentioned dealing with some pretty serious issues back then. Long story short, because of a single administrative error, my family was almost evicted ^^' And with the COVID, the quarantine and all the delays, it was especially complicated to reach for this or this institution (it's all fixed now btw, don't worry). So yeah, that plus my dog's death, my motivation to write just kind of disappeared for a while.
I kept writing now and then, but I wasn't nearly as productive as before, so even though I had a few chapters ready, I didn't want to come back just to disappear again once they ran out. But at the same time, I wasn't exactly sure when my motivation would return, so I was like "Yeah, it's fine, I'll just write tomorrow, there is no need for an announcement." But then tomorrow became the day after, and the day after, the day after again. And as you can guess, this situation lasted for an entire year :')
Then came 2022. My family's situation was settled, I moved into my own home, I adopted another cat AND another dog, all was great ! I finally felt ready to truly invest myself back into the story, but... Well came another problem. This one is entirely on me. It had been almost two years I hadn't written back then, and so, a lot of things had change. I had changed, my taste had changed, my style had changed, and... I wasn't satisfied with the story anymore (ﾟωﾟ；) When I went back to it, there were a lot of things I found cringe, and yes, you might think it's ridiculous (it is), but I became obsessed with fixing them. And as I planned more of the story, there were also a few plot holes I noticed. Basically, I wanted to rewrite the entire story. Which I did. Or tried to. As it turns out, rewritting an entire story without changing any major plot point, and just changing the style or a few things here and there isn't funny. It quickly became a chore, and the motivation I found again disappeared lol. Oops ! I took a break, went back to it, but it was tedious so I took another break, and another, and another. Heh. Perfectionism and being overly self-concious is a very bad combination. And guess what ? Poof ! Months passed again ಠ‿ಥ I still loved the story overall, and I still had so many ideas for it so I didn't want to drop it, but I made very little progress.
But then I watched Arcane, and long story short, I kind of became obsessed with it and I fell into fanfiction. And my spark suddenly came back. It's silly, but until then, I had almost forgotten how fun it was to write, to share my story with others and interact with readers. My fic was supposed to be a side project I wrote whenever I didn't feel like writing [ The Administrator ], but I quickly found myself spending much more time on it. Then it hit me that it was just not ok, and that I couldn't keep doing this. That even if I did finish the rewrite, by th time I did, my style would have changed again and, again, I wouldn't be satisfied with the first few chapters. Because the exact same thing happened with my fic lol, and it had only been a few months.
So yeah. It's stupid, I know, and it's ridiculous it took me so long to realize it, but I've come to terms with the fact I need to embrace my evolution as a writer rather than cringe at it. And so, I gave up the rewrite ( ◡‿◡ *) The story is imperfect, I'm perfectly aware of it, and it will stay this way. It was my first story, I still love it, and I want to have fun writing it again. More over, I think I've made you guys wait long enough lol. Perfectionism is not it. I decided to embrace the story as it was, flaws, plot holes and all, and work from here.
So here we are ! This one sentence is long, long overdue but... I'm back !
ヽ(o＾▽＾o)ノ
(I'll be dropping the rest of the side stories first, then we'll resume with the main plot.)
Comments
mike
I'm glad you're well
Silencebear
Well, news of you alive
Alexander
Still hoping for more 🥺
Денис Беликов
I am looking forward to this story continuing too :)
Alexander
I am realy looking forward to it 🙂Your story is one of my favourites and that out of the 253+ i have read. Don't worry too much about it beeing flawless no story ever is.
Garth Clark
i am looking forward to this story continuing
Jed
WOOO! Glad to have you back! This story is the reason I started reading LitRPGs and has always had a place in my heart! In every sense of the words and from the bottom of my soul, welcome back!
Minidiamant
This has made my day, I've been waiting for a long time, and I wish you good luck!
Soph
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I read a lot of isekais, and I ended up feeling a lot invested in this one. Happy to be able to read more of it! I wish you a pleasant writing and fanfic making journey!
Aura
Welcome back! Glad to have you posting again :D New writing style or old, I’m very excited that we’ll get to continue exploring the world of [ Administrator ]!
