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mid month update ~ cosplay statuses, plans, etc
🕑 Added 2023-01-17 21:29:17 +0000 UTCgoo morning my love!!!
how are you doing today! i'm sorry i've been less talkative and posty than i thought i would be, i'm almost done with resetting tiers and purchasing all of the necessary stuff i need for my reworking of patreon to include physical goods and downloadable goods in the tiers.
also, i think this is my 40th update! yaaaaay so many text posts
updates on current stuff!:
i'm incredibly deeply sorry that its taken me so so long to post my chii pack, the person who was helping me edit them ended up not being able to finish them so i've had to rework my schedule to re-include time to edit them and my mental health has been pretty bad lately so it's been hard to finish. i usually have to have a lot of mental prep to look at myself for that long (15ish photos!) and in between my photoshoots happening this week and stuff its just been hard to find the strength. theyre going to be up asap though! i'm working on them right now and they're super cute. i'm really sorry again, it'll be up soon! i love you guys and feel really bad it's been so long without it so far this month
bunny suit pochaco is going great! i'm shooting it this week and hope it'll be up publicly by the 22nd to celebrate lunar new year.
dokuro is also going okay! excaliborg is giving me some trouble, i cant afford more spray paint for it right now so i'm trying my best to use what i have and hope it'll be okay enough to take to cons still. as soon as i finish it i'll have super cute pics to post!
2b is also going okay! i'm not really sure if i'm going to redo her wig or use a new one yet, i guess we'll see! i'm not sure if she'll be in february or january yet, we'll have to see! i'm not a huge fan of the nier anime like i thought i would be and i'm doing this essentially to celebrate it so, lol.........................
personal life stuff? kind of bleak!
i'll keep it short since it's not exactly fun to talk about but recently my physical health is getting kind of worse. i noticed im developing tremors in my hands from my RA and it's keeping me from being able to hold my hand as steady as i need to for crafting sometimes. this is really killing me mentally, as you guys know the only thing i really like to do with my time and life is create things. even my chill hobbies like legos or sculpting are getting kind of hard for me to do, which sucks!
also for those who are asking for updates on me moving to a more accessible apartment where i can live easier, very sadly the plans for me to move this month fell apart because my car that my roommate and i use to travel around is having serious serious issues and we have to possibly get a new one. neither of us really have any savings and we don't live in a walkable city at all, so i don't think i can do any conventions or move to a safer apartment anytime soon.
im working on my mental health and i think my mood has finally plateaued and can't get worse but i'm very scared of posting still. i'm really sorry that even though i'm trying so hard to get okay with it, it's still hard!
i have like so many really incredible messages on here i really need to answer and open and i'm barely in my server anymore, i promise that i love you guys and care a lot i'm just really really struggling lately. i want to connect with you guys more and every time i get ready to and revv up the engines something Happens, it really sucks.
thank you for reading and i hope youre having a good week so far, i'm going to be posting some stuff explaining my new tiers the minute they're done and i'll have my chii stuff up in the next few days! i love you so so so so so much and we're gonna get through this together!
