kevinwada
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Self Portrait
🕑 Added 2022-03-21 16:05:57 +0000 UTCI don't do self portraits...ever, really. I think I've done 3 in the entirety of my art career, including this one. I realized as I attempted this one, that it's something I've actively shied away from. I've been pretty open with the fact that my productivity has been heavily impeded by my mental health and I'm taking action to get myself back on track. One thing my therapist asked me to do was draw how I'm feeling. This is another thing I've never really done - used art as therapy.
For years now I've been drawing superheroes and YA novel characters - all licensed entities I don't own and have smaller stakes in. Drawing myself, drawing my emotional state, seems like a prospect so beyond the realms of my practice that it feels like I'd be drawing in another language...if that makes sense. But we all must start somewhere, and I don't want to ramble. When I feel unfocused, or in a daze, I feel it in my eyes. I fixate on an indistinct point in space before me, and my eyes haze over and lose track of themselves. I feel like time is slowing down and the air is thick soup. I can't move. The thick soup allows me to slowly bob in place, my eyes wide and empty.
(Ok, good news is I've been feeling a lot better than this lately! yaaaaas)
