lapinbeau
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Billing paused. Mental State
🕑 Added 2025-07-21 09:57:32 +0000 UTCLook people, I'm not going to beat around the bush. I've been feeling... emotionally dead lately. I've had little desire, little drive to actually create, because lately everything I do feels pointless and tedious. I don't know if it's a psychological defense mechanism to numb myself to the world events, or if I'm in a rut, or if it's an ambient worry that everyone I love will soon die of old age... but I just haven't been... "feeling it." Nothing brings me any real enjoyment, nothing.
I'm pausing the billing again. I can't take your money for nothing.
Ugh... I don't know. Everything just feels bleak and stagnant right now. I'd LIKE to get a mentor to help me improve, but I don't even know where to begin looking for something like that. The artists I admire most don't have time for it, and others just aren't the types of artists I wish to emulate.
I'm gonna try to take this month to figure out how to re-awaken my desire to create, maybe find someone willing to teach me new things.
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Doomska
I donโt know you but shitโs hard right now. My sympathies
