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🕑 Added 2020-08-02 03:20:03 +0000 UTCIt’s really difficult figuring out how to start this and what to say exactly but I’ll do my best.
I know this is the first time you’ve all heard from me aside from my rare pop-ins on twitter letting people know I’m still alive. I really just needed time. A lot of it apparently. More time than I thought. I’m going to be talking as a person and not as an artist.
The sudden death of both my parents was a lot for me to handle. I’ve never experienced such soul shattering grief before and I fell into a 5 year depression. My depression and grief took total control of my life. I couldn’t enjoy anything anymore. My drive and sense of purpose was lost. I couldn’t be social, post, create. I was suicidal. I felt that nothing in my life that I did mattered since the only person who validated me was gone. Grief and mortality really consumed me.
I needed to get away and do what I could to help my mental state. Without therapy I’ve been doing what I can for myself. For a long time I’ve been trying to be who I was before my parents died. But I realized that I just need to be a new version of myself for this new chapter in my life.
I want to apologize to anyone if I ever made you feel like I was ignoring you and for leaving my responsibilities behind. I want to do and be better. I’m a work in progress.
I’ve never openly talked about this and it makes me really nervous posting this publicly since this delves into my personal life so deeply.
I want to do my best to connect with people, make friends and art again.
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Brandon Ito
Nothing but love Drea, I’m sure your folks would be proud of you. Love your art, if you ever feel comfortable coming back, we’ll be here. If you don’t, your health and happiness are what’s important <3
