Jessie Beale
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Sex wasn't a subject in my household // BTS
🕑 Added 2023-02-03 04:01:00 +0000 UTCI was recently listening to a podcast with @carrotbowlbonnie speaking to Taylor-leigh about openly discussing sex with children.
Now, I don't have children, and nor do I plan on being a parent but this topic really brought up some deep-rooted emotions from my past.
Sex wasn't a subject in my household growing up although, it remained the elephant in the room for many years.
My guardian had many lovers. And when they arrived, my brother and I were second best. Sometimes they would stay the night, sometimes they would stay the month. All we knew is that we couldn't wait until they left.
As time went on, I began to associate sex with feelings of discomfort, leaving a sour taste in my mouth (fugitively speaking) & the exploration of my own sexuality through my teens made me feel icky.
Masturbation wasn't spoken about.
Contraception wasn't spoken about.
Consent wasn't spoken about.
Sex wasn't spoken about.
Now, I don't hold blame, but the lack of conversation made a large impact on the person I am today.
But the biggest impact, the biggest breakthrough in taking ownership of my sexuality was nude photography. The power I feel when I stand in front of a camera, knowing that I can create shapes and lines with this body of mine. Knowing I am a powerful woman that is in control of my body, my choices, and my future. Knowing that I am safe.
Comments
Jessie
You are so sweet 😭 That means the world to me!!
Eric Pidgeon
You are a strong, smart, confident, beautiful, and powerful woman. As well as you’re an inspiring teacher with so much share that we can all learn from when it comes to nudity, sexuality, movement, spirituality and mental health. Thank you for your words of wisdom, guidance, kindness, and love.
