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🕑 Added 2022-07-12 20:00:04 +0000 UTCAs you can tell from my posts today I’m in a particularly goofy mood, particularly because I got no sleep and partially bc im driving myself crazy with trying to befriend people but also not being capable of it even though it’s what I desperately want. Bro im convinced my weird social patterens are directly linked to my childhood. I know that I WANT to be social and I do okayish on social media and stuff but real, close, and authentic friendships would be nice too, and I have no idea how to do it right, even with the friends I do have right now, they know I love them deeply but I have a very hard time keeping in touch via technology with them. Im the acception for them. To them I’m that one good friend that disappears for months at a time and when I come back it’s like nothing changed. Most people don’t like that, and I understand the few friends that likely don’t consider me friends anymore bc I don’t live by them, I may have hurt them but I don’t know. I’m also scared to make new freinds even with people I find really cool and interesting. Maybe I’m scared of being vulnerable and use social media as a way to be social without being social? I mean I like being vinerable, but I think I’m just scared of it? Well, I’m going to talk to a therapist and maybe see what they think.
Comments
Brad
Same fam
Jay G
You mostly just described me... Except for the wanting to be social part... Like, I "kinda" want friends... But at the same time, my social battery wouldn't power an itty bitty book light, so it's "hello" and then back to hermitville for me
Zero
Sure you disappear from time to time but covid years has made people more accepting and understanding of taking these breaks. You go always goes an extra miles by telling them why you were gone when you can simply say “I’m in a better place now” and they will accept it
Seth Stevens
You're fine😂 if someone doesn't want to accept the friendship you have to offer them that says more about them than it does you!
Daniel
You can be my fwiend
