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scene 35 wip + fanta talks a lot
🕑 Added 2019-03-15 02:02:41 +0000 UTCMimi and eyesss. it's so fun to draw close-ups. i've started to line scene 35 and i'm making nice progress. i'm not promising anything, but it could be that i'm done a little earlier than usual with this scene. i'll keep you updated on that π
and i'm not sure how to say it, but... maybe you have read my tweets at the beginning of the month? after the last public update i distanced myself from certain things big time. i tried to find the source of my unhappiness regarding some things for quite some time now, and after doing a lot of thinking and listening to podcasts, and talking things through, i think i have found it. i just don't want to feel bad about my story and myself and my pace anymore.
it's easy to lose direction when you work in the webcomic industry (or any content creator industry really) ... the peer pressure and pressure from the audience is huge, the need to keep up with the others is too, the platform algorithms demand steady fast updating or else you'll be forgotten, or else you're not eligible for ad revenue, if you don't get enough views you won't get paid, the fast paced consuming makes people very demanding and impatient and *rude* and it leads to some readers not appreciating panels, or plot... or anything, even if it's free to read. which then makes me think the work was not entirely worth it. and so on. there is a lot more to it than i can tell in only a few sentences...
i questioned my story more than once. almost regretted making it so complex, because if it was simpler and if i wouldn't add so many details, i could do more pages instead... could stay on top of the lists. but at what cost? it wouldn't even be Ghost Lights then? .... you see the problem? to be honest it all made me so unhappy. like everyone else i was chasing something, numbers, views, i don't even know, never feeling good enough. i tried to keep up because i don't want to stop the comic. i just want to keep working on it. it's my goal to create a fulfilling story for others to read. but i guess the truth is, that if i would keep at it like this (feeling guilty about the way i do things) i would have to stop anyway.
i'm just very glad that i always had a ton of kind people around me who told me that it's okay to do it my way. very patient people, people who told me all their feelings and theories ;; who made me super happy and motivated me to draw and share (you did that, too!) that's why, even though the guilty feeling was always kinda there, i still did it like i wanted. and i'm so glad about it, because no, i don't regret making the story the way it is. it's just that this... i call it machinery, or whatever... doesn't match with what i want at all. i love to draw, i love the task of drawing. i love to spend a bit more time on details and to put easter eggs into dialogue and backgrounds for you guys to discover. and i love to tell stories and to spend time with my characters. when i realized all of this, i felt relieved. because those are all things i wanted from the beginning, and they're all still there. so my goals haven't changed... just got a bit lost.
it will probably take a while to not be so affected anymore, but i want to focus on the important things. continue to look after my health. and block some other stuff instead. as you can see, i thought a lot about what's important for me and what isn't. you're so important to me, too! like a broken record: you're a big reason why the story and the characters are the way they are ; _; π¦π you just help me so much and i wish i could hug you all
Comments
Ayamabuki
It feels bit strange to comment here after so long. I do hope that the things talked here aren't bothering you too much anymore and that you're well and happy. Taking care of yourself is the most important thing.
IrreverentBeauty
Itβs the best creepy cute story Iβve read.
IrreverentBeauty
I love your story. Donβt let the general masses get you down
I just wanted to say THANK YOU, thank you so much for creating your wonderful characters and wonderful story and putting it out there for us to read. The pace doesn't matter. It's always a privilege for us to get to read it! Please continue to make something that *you're* happy with <3
Lizi Toledano
You're an amazing creator, Fanta! One of my favorite things in your comic is that I can see your love and dedication to the story, the characters and the art.. The most important thing is that you'll feel happy and content with what you make and put put to the world! πyou're doing a fantastic job, thank youππ
Tarokins
Know that you don't have any obligations for anyone you don't want to! Personally, when I see you post anything at all it's like getting a surprise gift, and I love it! Take care of yourself and work at your own pace! I'm positive most of us think the wait is worth it :D
A.R.Walker_Art
To be honest, I know the feeling. I'm a beginner at webtoons (aspiring to have even CLOSE to the skill you've got) but I've been telling stories for a REAAALLY long time. The more intricate the story, the more panels-and therefore the more pages-the story needs to be told. I get really discouraged whenever I notice someone has unsubscribed, or that only a few ever really comment and a lot of those times, I feel like it's because my story seems to move SOOO SLOW. But sometimes, that's how those stories have to be told. I figured a year ago when my webtoon started that I'd lose followers left and right but it's MY story and I tell it for the satisfaction of myself. I feel like yours should be the same. Sure, sometimes the lack of income can be stressful, but this story is ultimately one that you should tell the way you want. And, to be honest, your story (and I've said this in the past) is really well written and I wouldn't WANT you to change the way you've been doing things. If people want early chapters, they can exchange one of their daily starbucks coffee runs for your Patreon. As someone who's dirt poor, it's NOT even close to expensive. Otherwise, don't let their complaints get to you. You do you, and the ones who support you will be the foundation that keeps your structure from falling.
Vajolet
*hugs*
PhoenixFyre
I love the story. It is different from other webtoons which I also love. It is original. The story and art are amazing. There will always be people who appreciate your work and don't ever give power to others that don't agree with you. We are here and not going anywhere. We will be here to encourage you. To me the people who are not happy try to pass it on to others. DON'T ALLOW IT and have confidence in yourself and your work. I now said my peace, lol
Emily Royer
Not usually one to leave comments,but just wanted you to know your work is beautiful and fascinating. Any snippet you give us is one of the highlights of my month. Work as any pace you need, I'll always love Ghost Lights.
Toxxic Ginger
Always do you and the ones who love you will love what you do and create. π
Courtney Wells
I love your story β€
