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Io and Saiph + fanta talks a lot
🕑 Added 2019-02-05 20:43:42 +0000 UTC<3 meet Io and Saiph! they're two new... old OCs of mine. and they will be the leads of a story called "fire and stardust" (i might give it a new name though)
a few days ago a friend of mine found an old drawing i did for her and it was one of my dragonboys from my dropped webcomic project called "fire and stardust". since then i'm just !!!! ;; i do miss these characters. i was playing with the thought for a while now, but i really want to do something new with them.
i'm not sure how many of you remember it, but i've started the project over like 2 or 3 times already when i was younger. due to work and health i had to cancel it completely. i felt like the biggest failure for the longest time because of it. a lot of regret and a lot of "what if i wouldn't have gotten sick" etc. it's been haunting me in a very bad way. i avoid looking at the pages and it makes me think stuff like "i could be a much better artist by now already", i could have done this, could have done that....
and i don't want to think like that anymore, because it's not my fault that i injured my hand etc. it's in the past, i tried, and i learned a lot. i have Ghost Lights now and it helped me to leave it behind. i'm still a tiny bit scared that i will fail at this project, too, but you guys help me so much! ;; i've planned it properly, i have enough time to fix writing, and to be able to do it in my pace without overworking myself makes it feel like it's possible after all. i need to clarify that i didn't injure my hand from drawing too much back then - it happened at my old workplace and was one of the early signs of a burn out. i didn't overwork myself with the webcomic, but instead the workload and then the injury forced me to stop doing it.
so... what i wanted to say with it is: i finally want to make peace with this project 🌻 i already took the characters out of the plot i originally had planned. i'm going to put them into something very different, completely new. i won't look back at old writings, i won't use any written dialogue, nothing. i will just bury it together with all the bad feelings. i love these characters incredibly much. they've been with me for over 10 years now and they never stopped existing in my head. there's enough of them in there that i can use to make something new. as characters they're going to be a bit different of course, but i just want to give them something happy now. a simple story without too much lore, something that will do them justice but won't be too much, just something i can work on next to Ghost Lights one day! i'll work on and off on it and sometimes show you the progress <3
oh and i won't be able to include all characters i had, and i want to make some of them into someone new entirely. i already changed one: here's a young nonbinary cutie, name not sure yet because i need to change it, but they stick around Saiph a lot and love him very much (like a big brother)
Comments
Memorissa
I love this! I can't wait, excitement is building up 😍
Stasi Roo Who
That's so awesome and exciting Fanta! I'm so happy you're able to do this now and let go of those feelings from the past. As always I will be here to support you in your journey 💖
//SCREAMS LOUDLY LOOK AT THEM- LOOK AT THAT LITTLE CUTIE AT THE END TOO OMG I'm dying O)-< I can't wait to see where you lead them~ They deserve a happy ending! You too, I hope this helps you leave those bad feelings back in the past where they belong. You're so much more experiences and wiser now- you've grown a lot since then and you're doing such a great job with Ghost Lights, I know that this side project will also be just AWESOME <3
toblerone231
Cuties!! I’ll look forward to it! 🙌🏻❤️
Good luck ❤️
